Tuesday,24 April 2007
I've Moved!!!
Hola my faithful blog readers!I've moved out of Blogger.
Check out my new blog space for more updates :)
http://mardbluerush.wordpress.com
Monday,16 April 2007
Sunday's "Rrroaryal" Rumble!!
Alright peeps,this blog entry has absolutely nothing to do with any WWF wrestling matches or violent fighting scenes.It just happened that yesterday was like an all day "rojak" day for me apart from some important announcements that I wish to highlight here.
Darn, even as I am typing this entry, I can still feel my tummy rumbling.Why,do you asked? Well let's track back the things which I had done throughout the whole of yesterday with my family.
Like any other ordinary Sundays,I would still wake up early in the morning to run errands within the house.Make breakfast,do laundry,bathe,feed and play with Laila and settle with other housekeeping.
I normally associate Sundays as being lazy days for me,but somehow I just felt this strong urge and energy to spend the rest of the Sunday afternoon out of the house.
The first pit stop was East Coast Park.Yeap all the way from Choa Chu Kang to East Coast Park not for a picnic,cycling or roller-blading but to "test-drive" my radio remote control WRX ("p).Ahaks its been a long time since I'd last played with a radio remote control car.It was fun to hear the wheels spinning and the sound of the "fierce" WRX making very swift turns om the sands of the beach and on the pathways.Awesome.In fact almost every passer-by stopped for a while to admire this very cool toy :)
Around late afternoon,the next pit stop was Plaza Singapura to do what every girl is fond of..yes SHOPPING!
Being a mommy now,I really have to admit this that my trips to shopping malls won't be complete if I don't visit the supermarket.I just have to enter the supermarket for "inspection" even though I don't really need to buy groceries.Lol.I have this tendency to go around looking for those common items found in my kitchen at home to conclude my comparisons of the products' prices as compared to other supermarkets.I'd even lookout for special promotions that these supermarkets have to offer.Weird? Well I called this the "Mak Mak syndrome".Ouh well u see,during the days when I was still unmarried and if I were to accompany my Mum to the supermarkets or the wet markets,she will exactly do the same thing like I did.And ouh did i already mentioned about another factor of the "mak mak syndrome?"
Ouh well it about the "Aiyah towkay give me more discount lah.$8 for a kilo of prawns?Sell me $6 lah towkay!"
Yes people, I have slowly mastered the art of "ridiculous" bargaining.All thanks to the big maam,my mom.
Ok and so after spending about 3 hours or so at Plaza Singapura, our next stop was Sengkang where I'd met my sis and bro-in-law to visit their sick son,Aniq Furqan.I'd bought for him some toys to play with.The poor little boy was down with a nasty viral fever.I didnt stay at their house for long.Decided to go straight-away back home.Not until I saw this "Europe Fun Fair" and the pasar malam just outside Compass Point on the open field, an enormous space of about 3 football fields.The exciting rides tempted me so much that I'd finally got on the "Top Gun" and my all time favourite bumper car.Too much for Laila?Ouh well, my little girl was just as excited as yours truly.She had her eyes fixed on almost every rides that we passed by and she will sort of give those active kicks of her legs in mid-air accompanied by her baby chuckle.She couldnt care less of the noisy atmosphere.In fact, she just like her Ibu was enjoying every minute of it.
Ouh well maybe on the next "Europe Fun Fair", I am intending to get on The Vortex, that thrilling 360 degrees spinner where you have to lie face down as in the Superman flying position.Hell yeah definitely tats gonna be another lung screamer.Ouh by the way if you're wondering where the next Europe Fun Fair will be,its gonna be located on the open field near Woodlands Causeway Point in the middle of next month.
Finally my final pit stop for the day was well a late dinner or should I say supper at Teh Tarik Corner at Woodlands.Ordered a plate of Nasi Pattaya.And boy when the rice was finally served in front of me,I'd noticed tiny slices of red chilli padi cooked together with the rice.I had teh tarik.It was perfect.Creamy,rich taste of hot tea.What a combination.
That late supper summed up my Sunday.On the way back home,I'd popped in some fresh and strong mint sweets to keep me awake throughout the journey home.These are special fresh and strong mint sweets that I'd bought from across the Causeway.Big mistake for me.To make it worse upon reaching home I was really feeling thirsty.My loss of energy, all thanks to the crazy screams when I ride on that Top Gun at the fun-fair earlier on.And so to satisfy my thirsty taste bud, I'd grabbed half a bottle of Pepsi to quench my thirst.The aftermath was disaster.I'd spent most of the time in the wee hours of the morning answering nature calls.Lol.The rest was history.Okie that finally summed up my Sunday's "Rrroar"yal Rumble.Get it?
Okay before I end this entry I wanna make two very important shoutouts.
The 1st...To my dearest bestie sis Ain,if you're reading this,wishing u a very happy belated 25th birthday to you yah.Much hugs and kisses frm Mummy Mar and Baby Laila :)
The final shoutout to my dearest favourite poly classmate of all time,the bubbly akak Nadia Arif..congrats on the arrival of your baby boy!!We shall meet up pretty soon.Its gonna be my turn now to "kish kish kish and kish" your little baby :)
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Friday,13 April 2007
Alas!! What Took You So Long?!
Hola my fellow blog readers!!I know..I know,it's been quite a while since I'd last blogged.Ironically whenever I find myself the time to blog, its always on a Friday.Dunno why eh?Heeheehee.
So much of reading other people's blogs that I'd almost forgotten about mine.And my all thanks to Ms Drubilee for that Friendster message in reminding me to do so :)
I've always get questions from my friends and relatives on the latest developments of my little girl.Mind you, a single day wouldn't pass by without someone asking me "How's Laila?" , "What's she doing now?" etc..etc and all my replies to them will be answered back with the "Awwwwww!!!" , gigglish chuckles and the ultimate "So cuteeee!!"
The irresistable "monggel"
Apart from my Squammies,I've always get frequent requests from fellow bloggers,friends and even strangers whom wanted to get up close with Laila.Apparently those strangers wanted my permission for Laila to be photographed and her photos would then be used for some baby-commercial websites.Woh hoh,my little girl is slowly gaining popularity ("p)
So anyway on last Wednesday night, I'd finally fulfilled the wishes of 2 people, Kamal and Shapie, my long time friends since my poly days (we were attached to the same company for our SIP).Its been a very long time since I'd last seen the both of them and they came all the way to my mum's place at Eunos to meet up with us (me & Laila).I was actually feeling unwell but I didn't want to dampened their much anticipated spirits to meet up with me and of course the STAR baby Laila (",)
When u get 2 dudes and a baby together.."Eh eh macam mana nak dukung Laila nih?" ("p)
As you can see, my little girl is feeling so much comfortable miggling with the 2 dudes
Kamal posing with the future biker chic.hehehe
Anyway the four of us did enjoy ourselves meeting and catching up with the times.Thanks for the treat guys.As promised, Insya-Allah we will meet up again and the next time when we do meet up again,bring more chocolates for the Mummy yah ("p)
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Friday,30 March 2007
I Not Stupid...
How many of you have read about little Ainan, a 7 year old boy whom had sat for the GCE "O" Levels Chemistry paper and passed with a grade C? He was featured on the front covers of the papers recently with his whole family.Ainan is no ordinary child.He is gifted with a high I.Q rate. His 2 other younger sublings too shows extraordinary talents, one having an interest in Biology & animals and the other in Music.
Try as we might not to compare our kids with others, or use their achievements and developments as yardsticks or benchmarks, there’s something inherently competitive in our nature as human beings to do just that - compare.
Scenario A - " Ahh tuh lah kau, dah brapa kali mak cakap buang masa jek kau main2 muzik ni semua. Apa faedahnya? Pelajaran kau sumer ke mana. Cuba kau tengok macam adik kau. Result exams sumer bagus banyak distinctions. Kau? Nak harapkan grade C takkan kemana lah ko !"
Scenario B - " Eh kenapa kau bengap sangat arr. Dah brapa banyak kali aku ajar kau benda ni tak faham2. Kau nih degil lah. Susah. Dulu masa ajar abang dengan kakak kau pon tak macam kau tau!"
Scenario C - " Asal kau pilih sekolah tu? Budak2 pat sana semua bukannya serious sangat nak belajar. Kalau kau pilih sekolah ni kan bagus. Abang kau...kakak kau masuk sekolah yang prestigious, high reputation, cultured and yah definitely you can excel more dari sekolah2 kopak sarap tuh.."
The reality of living? Yes, its happening all around us.Like it. or not.
It is a very disturbing scene if kids as early as 7 years old are exposed to very high expectations of demanding parents.Well not in the case of Ainan of course, as he himself developed that special interest with Chemistry and that his parents gave their fullest support and encouragement to motivate their child more with his interest.
What I'm referring to is of those demanding parents whom wanted instant miracles to happen in their kids and being forceful to decide what's best for their own children without taking into account how the children would react and feel. Everything that the child does is either backfired or it's still proved not up to that standard. Getting a C grade for Maths rather than an A. Horrondous? Yeah especially if it comes straight out from our parents' mouth. The people whom should understand more about us than any other people.
And so I'm making a very very important point to myself that I will never ever compare Laila with other kids. My little Laila is already unique a person she is :)
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Tuesday,27 March 2007
That Marvellous Weekend
The pictures just says it all :)
The Squammies (Rahim not in picture), baby Squammie Laila ,and Zammie's Jazz,posing near the makan place that we called The "Funky" Prata Place
Well as you can see from the snapshots above, we did really have a very good time hanging out together.Its been a while since I'd last done that with my dearest Squammies.And as for Laila, i'm very sure too that she had a very good time as well despite being the target for malicious baby biters.Hahaha.Trust your Ibu, Laila when she says that this is just the beginning for you. There's more to come my baby :)
And yeah guess what si Ibu Laila was surprised with....These!!!!
Hmm a miniature pink sofa?!
Eh no! Its a miniature pink sofa jewellery box with s funky necklace!!
And a personalised table top monthly calendar with snapshots of us! The Squad Team!!
Thank you so much squammies for the prezzies!!! I simply luv them !
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Friday,16 March 2007
Andai Ku Tahu
Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Ku akan memohon Tuhan
Tolong panjangkan umurku
Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba masaku
Ku akan memohon Tuhan
Jangan kau ambil nyawaku
Aku takut akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut dosa yg terus membayangiku
Andai ku tahu
Malaikat-Mu kan menjemputku
Izinkan aku mengucap kata taubat pada-Mu
Aku takut akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut dosa yg terus membayangiku
Ampuni aku dari segala dosa dosaku
Ampuni aku menangis ku bertaubat pada-Mu
Aku manusia yang takut neraka
Namun aku juga tak pantas di surga
Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Izinkan aku mengucap kata taubat pada-Mu
Aku takut akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut dosa yg terus membayangiku
Ampuni aku dari segala dosa dosaku
Ampuni aku menangis ku bertaubat pada-Mu
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Saturday,3 March 2007
3 cheers for her! Hip Hip Hooray!!!
I'm truly overjoyed by what I've witnessed for the 1st time ever in my life. And indeed it was an ecstatic moment for the rest of my family members.The wait has ended and yes at about 2.30a.m earlier this morning, my baby girl's finally got hold of the crawling position!!----------------
Saturday,3 March 2007
It's Back!
Hey peeps! Just making a small announcement here. With effect from now on, all of you are now able to contact me through my "old" mobile number. Most of you by now, might have received my smses informing you of this change and so I won't be leaving my number here to safeguard my privacy especially from those bloody unwanted callers or lunatic prank callers whom had made the living hell outta me.Damn whoever you are.Grrr...alright enough, i shouldn't get mad here. In fact i should be very HAPPY. Why? Cause I've finally got myself the Sony Ericsson K618 3G phone!! Nyehahahahaha.
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Tuesday,27 February 2007
The Little Shophaholic...
February's been quite a very "sick" month for me and my family.It all started early Feb, when lil Laila was hit with a very high fever,followed by yours truly,the symptoms went on and off for days, and one by one my family members,my mum and my siblings were not spared either.Just when we thought that the high fever symptoms had gone down,weeks later my baby and again yours truly was hit by the notorious flu bug.Gee how unlucky can we get you'll ask.Its up to the extent that i had this thought that someone had casted an evil spell to befall on my family.Iskk..God forbids..Astaghfirullah hal aziim.Gone were those sleepless nights looking after my sick baby and my sick self and each time i get paranoid hearing my lil girl crying non-stop when she was sick.Syukur alhamdulillah everything's all right now. :)
And what better ways can we get back to our normal activities again..it's non other than retail therapy...yes its SHOPPING time! From Vivocity and all the way to Tampines Mall & Century Square!
@ Vivocity...hey Doraemon's cute but i'm cuter!Nyehahaha...my very own cute lil Doraemon tote bag!
@Tampines MRT station the day after....err Uncle Shafiq where are we going next? ("p)
At the end of the day...the little shophaholic...
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Friday,23 February 2007
Dad
Dad...so many images come to mind
whenever I speak your name;
It seems without you in my life
things have never been the same.
What happened to those lazy days
when I was just a child;
When my life was consumed in you
in your love, and in your smile.
What happened to all those times
when I always looked to you;
No matter what happened in my life
you could make my gray skies blue.
Dad, some days I hear your voice
and turn to see your face;
Yet in my turning...it seems
the sound has been erased.
Dad, who will I turn to for answers
when life does not make sense;
Who will be there to hold me close
when the pieces just don't fit.
Oh, Dad, if I could turn back time
and once more hear your voice;
I'd tell you that out of all the dads
you would still be my choice.
Please always know that I love you
and no one can take your place;
Years may come and go
but your memory will never be erased
Sentiasa di dalam kenangan...hari ini,genap sudah 4 tahun Allahyarham Papa meninggalkan aku sekeluarga untuk menyambut seruan Illahi.Semoga rohnya diberkati, dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan bersama orang-orang yang beriman.
Untuk Allahyarham Jamil Bin Tamhead, Al-Fatihah......
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Thursday,8 February 2007
PATIENCE
Just have a little patience
I'm still hurting from a love I lost,
I'm feeling your frustration.
Any minute all the pain will stop.
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight,
don't be too hard on my emotions
Cause I need time.
My heart is numb, has no feeling.
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience.
I really wanna start over again,
I know you wanna be my salvation.
The one that I can always depend.
I'll try to be strong. Believe me,
I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me.
Cause I need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,
Yeah, have a little patience, Yeah
Cause these scars run so deep,
It's been hard,
But I have to believe.
Have a little patience,
Have a little patience,
Woah, Cause I, I just need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
just try, and have a little patience,
Have a little patience,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing
just try and have a little... Patience
(p.s: i'm sure every single one of you out there knows that Take That used to be the ultimate "boyband" of the early 90's.Well they've come all together again (except the naughty boy Robbie Williams),with new looks and image for their brand new album "Beautiful World" which was launched recently.
"Patience" is actually one of the songs featured in their latest album and has been nominated for The Brit Awards.)
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Tuesday,6 February 2007
When the "Little Alter Ego" dominates...
Reading Diah's blog suddenly made me realised about something.It seems or rather that my "little alter ego" has taken the centre-stage more frequently.If you're wondering what am i talking about,i'm actually referring to my little girl.Just like Diah had mentioned in her blog,it seems that my "little alter ego" too, had dominated much of her Ibu's blog.From the pictures to blogskins, the blog entries now focuses more on this "little alter ego" of mine.Even the comments made mostly are all about you now.How come eh?In just within a short period of time,its all now about the "little alter ego" of mine.Yes my dear baby,for once you've gotten into your Ibu's way and stole the limelight from her.Tsk..tsk..tsk...
Anyway don't worry precious, no matter how often you may get into your Ibu's way, your Ibu will adore and love you always, now and forever even if it takes for your Ibu to sacrifice a lot, like during the times when you were so-so sick....
Trust me this "koyok" on my forehead doesn't really work for me
See how very patient my Ibu is? She could still smile and tolerate my "cranky"ness even when she herself, is very sickly too.
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Wednesday,31 January 2007
Demotivator of the day : "Get to work..You Aren't Being Paid to Believe in the Power of Your Dreams..."
Hehehe... how's that for some "motivation" to get you going throughout the day? LOL.My state of mind is in a mess now.Many plans came up and certainly many things to do as well.Anyway,in about 3 months time, i'm gonna be neighbours with one of my long time internet friend Salehin.Different blocks but within the same neighbourhood.Surely it'll be very nice to have a close friend living nearby and with his wedding coming up sometime mid-mth of this year, i'm sure very much excited as he is.I'm looking forward for that bro ("p)
My little girl turns 5 months today.I'd received so many requests from my friends and relatives asking when can they have the chance to meet up with the little girl and sometimes i'm sorry to disappoint a lot of them.It's the timing lah.. you see the Ibu herself is pretty much tied up with stuffs to do.If you're wondering what the lil kiddo's clever at now..ouh well she loves to stand up on her 2 feets (obviously the Ibu still needs to support her lah), shake her lil booty up and down continuously while listening to all sorts of music ("p).Hmm she's not crawling yet though but looking at some positive signs e.g (she can hold up her head and look straight whenever i purposely put her to crawling position and that she can tilt her body sideways all by herself), i think it'll only be a matter of time to see her perfect crawl.
Anyway to those whom are missing my lil girl, hope you all enjoy the little photo slide-show of Laila Auni Qistina which i'd specially compiled for your viewing pleasure here in my blog.And yes...Laila sends her wet kisses to all of you my blog readers (",)
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Friday,26 January 2007
Congratulations!!!
The fabulous looking couple...Selamat Pengantin Baru to my ex-pri school friend and classmate Norashikin on her wedding recently..
Mummy for the 2nd time,congrats to my ex-poly mate & ex-SNT tarian gal Indahsari, upon the latest arrival of her bundle of joy Tiara A'lyssandra
and LAST but not Least...
To my ever bubbly,kecohrable & gerek tarian-partner-in-crime Rozi...Happy 25th Birthday to You today!!!
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Tuesday,23 January 2007
A Minute of Silence...
I'd wakened up earlier this morning feeling a bit rather unwell.Body temperature's a bit high and i've got painful backaches.I'd also received a piece of shocking news when someone called up my home to deliver the news that Ustazah Badariah had passed away,this morning dawn time.My first reaction at once much to my disbelief, i'd suddenly became muted.I then informed my Mum of the news and she's just as shocked as me upon hearing it.
The late Ustazah Badariah was actually my religious class teacher from Madrasah Masjid Darul Aman way back during the days when I was in Pri 1.I wasn't her only student of course and in fact she'd also taught my other siblings at the same venue for years.My Mum was her student too as each week she'll attend those fardhu ain and Iqra classes conducted by our late ustazah.
Over the years the late Ustazah Badariah had seen all of us,me and my siblings grow up at our Eunos neighbourhood.She was among a few of the most dedicated ustazah around and i'd learnt a lot from her particularly for my Quran reading.Her demise will be a great loss to all those whom had learnt greatly from her.Semoga segala jasa baik arwahnya diberkati Allah dan semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.Al-Fatihah....
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tuesday,16 January 2007
And The Golden "Gelup" Award Goes to....
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Saturday,13 January 2007
Confessions...
I am not an avid cyber blogger myself in sharing with you people, the things happening on in my life as I'm still better off with my faithful diary (yeah you guys will think its old skool stuff).But anyway, that doesn't stop me from being faithful readers of other bloggers.Yes i DO read various blogs EVERYDAY. I repeat EVERYDAY.New friendships blossomed, all thanks to blog.Sometimes when i feel that i'm missing that someone, I will often browse through their blogs even though there are no regular updates.Hmm the least I could get a "cure" especially, if you've not met the person for a very long time or if you've not chatted with that person for a period of time.At least with blogs, i can still keep up to date with the things happening in their lives.
I've learnt lotsa things through blogs.The blogs served as a platform for me to better understand my friends, as well as the strangers' blogs which I often hopped into.In fact personally i think its not too much for me to say that these blogs often, if not indirectly serve as a "mirror" for my own self reflections.
Life changing events.A strong description i would use to describe most of the blogs which i've read and came across.2 of my besties Ain & Noi are now engaged,as for Rai wedding bells for her soon this year.Some of my single guy friends are now attached.Someone's excitement in becoming a Mum to a newborn baby,a new job,as well as the filming of the children's tv programme.
There are also some blogs that depicts the sadness,disappointment,anger & confused state-of-the minds..disputes between 2 good friends, and there's someone who'd lost their loved ones,someone whose job service was terminated,someone's whose on the verge of a divorce,several others in failed relationships,stressed up with work and personal life and the list goes on...
People would just blog on anything and sometimes like for in the case of between the 2 good friends who are in a dispute, you can even see them "counter-attacking" in letting the whole world know what were their squabbles al about.Of course, what i'm trying to say is that its not wrong for them to share whatever things been going on in their lives,but to the extent of condemning others and dragging their "drama" into cyberspace, but personally i think its kinda too much.Especially if the contents of your blog entry reflected too much on the negative issues,other bloggers whom are reading your blogs somehow indirectly will be able to judge your personality and etiquette in the REAL world.
Anyway just moments ago,2 of my close friends which i've not heard for a very long time MSNed me.Salehin and Yan.It's nice to hear from you guys again.I've not been MSNing regularly,replying to only those who'd messaged me.So as for now,I'm no longer known as the MSN Queen.Hehehe ("p).Hmm speaking of MSN,i wonder what's Nura been up to.Usually i'll always see her online very early on every Saturday morning & she'll always be the one to greet me first.Hee i guess she's already in her "Krabi moon" mood.Ahaks.Hope you and your hubby enjoy your vacation there and yeah keep those photos coming in yah *winks*
Oklah,guess i'd better get going.For now i'm gonna spend my time with Laila.Will be another busy weekend for me.Anyway if any of you guys are into performing arts especially dance, be sure to catch The Dancefloor which will be premiering on Channel 5 on the 21st of January.Hehehe..that's all people,see you all again with more blabberings from me ("p)
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Tuesday,9 January 2007
Year 2007...What's New?
9 days has passed since the new year kicked off.Fuh...tats really fast.I'm still me.Anyway, last Sunday saw a memorable event for my Squammie blood sis Noi....
Yes...both mummy and baby wore pink to grace the occassion.The bride's favourite colour.Semangat kan aku 2 beranak?Hehehe.Anyway,congratulations my dear on your engagement.With this I pray and hope that I will be able to witness the future weddings of my 3 dearly and lovely blood sisters in time to come,Insya-Allah....err starting off with Missy Raihanah coming July this year? :)
Due to some unforseen circumstances we came rather late for the occassion.For you Noi,we braved ourselves across the massive traffic jam at the causeway before we finally reached Bedok Reservoir.Yes,we were stuck in an almost 3 hr jam.But both Mummy and baby Laila were very determined to meet up with you.Sesungguhnya walaupun make-up kita dah jadi cair,tetapi semangat kita tak pernah cair.Hehehe.
Hey who left that lipstick peck on my cheeks?!!
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Saturday, 30 December 2006
Life Changing Events....
I was supposed to post this entry a few days back, but unfortunately due to some unforseen circumstances it had to be delayed.Anyway the "Cuti-Cuti M'sia" trip was a blast.Lotsa fun,excitement and also the much unexpected incident happened.I'd just had this strange feeling that i was going to see or meet someone whose very familiar during the comp retreat. You know like karma. I was right. I did see someone whose very very much familiar during my trip.Pure coincidence? Maybe.This month itself had brought some life changing events.The most recent was the engagement of our dearie Ms Nurul Ain to Mr Abdur Rahim.The 3rd gal member & the 1st guy member of the Squad Team to get hitched.School sweethearts & a couple for 7 yrs.Isn't that sweet?
I was twice as excited and happy for the 2 of them.My very best wishes goes out to the both of you.I guess its still not too late to wish the both of you my heartiest congratulations :)
The sisters
The gubahan from the lady's side
The gubahan from the guy's side
The very most tempting gubahan that sets my eyes glued on it.Hehe.Choc banana cake frm Secret Recipe
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Tuesday, 12 December 2006
Gimme A Gun...I So Wanna Shoot Her!!!!
Still feeling the exhaustion of last weekend's trip back to the kampung at BP (the abbrv. of the JB people for Batu Pahat).Apart from a relative's wedding that I had to attend,my main purpose of going back to the kampung was to getaway from the hectic life here.Lotsa things happened here & so i needed some time to put off my mind at ease.I'm still feeling angered and upset with a certain someone with what she did to me.A person whom i'd given much of my respect to all this while.Never did i expect that this someone will be a 'two-faced" person.She'd intervened into my personal affairs & been spreading too much of "wild" rumours involving my marriage life & my past behind my back.I was taken aback when one of my relatives actually came up to me & informed me about the rumour she'd heard & warned me of this person whom is trying to be a trouble-maker.She'd breached my trust in her.If only i had a gun,i'll shoot her!!!Haizzz..tats enough lah i dun wanna elaborate too much of it in here.The more i think of it the more painful it gets.Whatever happens i won't let anybody get into my way.I'll pray that i'll always remain calm,patient and strong just like the character "Ana" from the Indonesian sinetron "Hikmah".I believe there's always a retribution for those people who do a lot of wrongdoings.
Anyway back to the kampung trip,well it's been a long time since i'd last visited Kampung Parit Botak. 1 1/2 years has passed but the kampung still remains unchanged.The sights of oil palm plantations on hills,hundreds & hundreds of banana trees,fishing farms,kerepek factories,rivers & the herds of cattle roaming freely across the rivers gave the journey to the kampung a very pleasant & breathtaking one.Alhamdulillah, the 2 1/2 hrs journey to the kampung went on smoothly.The weather was sunny and the crystal clear blue skies cheered up my journey.Accompanied with the music from the car's stereo system,I'd hum and sang to my hearts content.Luckily there's no hidden camera in the car or else i'll be caught in the act with my silly antics.Hehe,very fun indeed ("p).Ok..ok stories won't be completed without pictures and so here are some of them...
Driving w/out law at the kampung...heehehe ("p)
Check out the blue skies with marshmallow clouds & the thick forest vegetation.On the left side of the road just centimetres away is actually a river!!
Behind the kompang troupe for the bertandang ceremony...
The abang-abang kompang...suka nah usik2 aku diaorang nih..heee...
Of all weddings i'd been to so far i think this is the one which is the most "happening" & "ribut"....too bad i didn't manage to take pictures of them "joget lambak" & "makan berdamai"..
Look who'd came this far too!!Tiz lil fella very active i tell you.Like her Ibu,she's overly excited as well!!Check out our heavy perspiration!
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Wednesday, 6 December 2006
One...Two..Tweeeeeeee!!!
I'm 3 months old oredi!!!I'm getting bigger,heavier and clever by the day!!Weeee!!!Btw,my Ibu is still freakin' worried about me coz i'm down with another notorious cold & coughs.Poor Ibu,she seemed so stressed up.So many things coming up for her.
Don't worry Ibu,I'll fight and stay as strong as you Ibu, I promise :)
MY TOP 5 "INTELLIGENCE" AS AT 3 MONTHS OLD
- I love to "exercise".When i say "excersise" it simply means lying flat on my back,kicking my legs continuously & waving my hands wildly to the beats of the "rattle" toy.
- I am no longer afraid of the "mini swimming pool" ouh well my bathtub that is & thanks to Mr Cool "Rubber Duckie".In fact, i'd wished if Ibu could bathe me longer so that I can have more time to play with the water & Mr "Rubber Duckie" & at the same time hopping up & down on my legs.Heee!!
- I love books just like my Ibu!! I'll never get tired listening to Ibu's story-telling & my fav book for the moment is "Cuddles the Cow"
- I simply lurveeeeee to "jalan-jalan", well another factor which i'd inherited off my Ibu.Please say the word "jalan-jalan" with caution coz once if u'd mentioned it to me,i will take it that you're planning to bring me out & i'd be wide awake & active for the rest of the day.
And finally......
- I can do the "Hokey Pokey"!!! Heheh :)
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Wednesday, 29 November 2006
Kak Zamah's Big Day...
So what have i been up to the whole of last weekend?well i was asked to "volunteer" with the preparations for the wedding of my air-stewardess neighbour,Kak Zamah to her Scottish businessman cum Bruneian PR bf,Brian.I had a very enjoyable time volunteering for her wedding and also i'd learnt new things like the arrangement of the "sirih dara" with Kak Tini.All the other neighbours were also there helping out the bride's family with the preparations.Instantly at once, the atmosphere felt as though we had brought back the gd old kampung days of the "gotong royong" spirit :)The Friday nite was an all ladies night out session.No, the bride didnt have the "berinai" or the henna session done due to the nature of her job.And so, all of us gathered at her place instead to help her to do the packaging of her wedding berkat souvenir.We stayed over at her place till the wee hours of the morning chit chatting and at the same time of course helping out with the preparations.Lucky thing for me Laila had her "good girl" attitude on.Lol.She spent most of her time sleeping, while her Ibu did manage with most of her stuffs.Now that's my girl (",)
The sirih dara arrangement that I did with Kak Tini
Look whose here too.Hehehe my Lil "L" was very sound asleep amidst all the noise we'd made ("p)
At home on Saturday Nite, getting ready to attend for Kak Zamah's solemnization ceremony.Laila's excited too..
The beautiful bride on her solemnization night
The bride and groom exchanging rings
The dowry
Sunday's "bersanding" event was even more joyous,colourful and culturely rich event.The main wedding theme was Balinese.The wedding guests arrived as early as 11a.m , as the wedding reception was held for both the relatives and friends of the bride and groom.At about 2.30p.m, both the bride and the groom made their grand entrance towards their bridal dais with the accompany of the Gamelan kompang troupe.
The couple making their way towards the multi-purpose hall,venue for the wedding reception
The multi-purpose hall transformed into a "Balinese" palace
Side view from the bridal dais
Close up view
The bride and groom in the traditional songket outfit
Yours truly with Lil "L".Can u guys imagine we were standing near where the DJ & the karaoke set-up was,but tiz lil kiddo could still sleep!!!
ZzzzZZzzzz...
Who says that only the bride & groom could change into their other outfits for the event.Hehehe Lil "L" making another appearance this time in her cute lil dress,well err...after her fast shower at home tat is ("p)
And so there you have it, the happenings of last weekend wedding event in pictures.As you're reading this,the couple's enjoying their one week of marriage leave for a short honeymoon.Then..Kak Zamah will resume her flying before she officially ends her 15 years of career as a Singapore girl with the SIA company in bout 3 months time.Thereafter which she declared that she wants to be a filial housewife and follows the husband back to Brunei where they will live and manage the family business together.
To Kak Multazamah and her hubby Muhammad Iman Brian Abdullah...Selamat Pengantin Baru (",)
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Monday, 27 November 2006
The Change....
I'd just came back from a very busy weekend.It was Kak Zamah's wedding,Auntie Saripah's daughter,my neighbour whom lived just a few storeys above my home.The last few days I'd spent my time helping her over at her place,Eastpoint Condo in Simei and also at her mum's place here at CCK.I've yet to upload their wedding photos yet....(yah yah as usual Di...).A very memorable event indeed it was.
Anyway i'll just save the story on the events of the wedding for later coz rite now i'm in my lazy mode.Moreover,I'm still pissed with a few individuals.I'm not naming anybody here.
Earlier this morning,I'd chatted with 1 of my contacts in MSN.She was sharing with me that lately a so-called very close friend of hers suddenly became arrogant or simply say "sombong" lah in Malay.They've known each other through MSN and became close friends in real life.But of late,this fella kinda tried avoiding her.They used to sms each other frequently and would chat almost everyday in MSN.
Even if that fella was online in MSN,the person often put on the status as "Away" or "Busy" and everytime she'd typed out msgs,the person would often responded with short replies and then SILENCE. My friend asked my opinions on why did this thing happened.I really did not have any comments to make.It seems that her story there kinda have some things in common with the experience i'm having now.Almost too similar i would say.
The very reason too why of late i don't seem to have the interest for frequent chats in MSN.Yes true,i really do have a lot of my friends chatting in MSN locally and also those whom are overseas.But tell me how do you feel if the people you've been chatting for years suddenly tried to "avoid" you.No more nice long conversations online.Just plain,simple "cold" replies.
How do you feel if a person whom had not had a long chat with you for quite sometime,suddenly came up to you,but instead of saying "Hi" or "Hello" first,the person directly bombarded you with questions expecting you to answer all of it even if it sounds rather personal.I dunno bout u guys but don't u think its awkward?Or is it just me being "sensitive"?
Anyway i'm not gonna think too much of it or bear any grudges.I'll just let it be.Maybe there's a reason behind every single happening.God knows.
For the rest whom still actively "MSN"ing me,i sincerely thank you very much for brightening up my days (",)
Gonna get my sleep now.More updates on Kak Zamah's wedding coming rite up (">)
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Monday, 20 November 2006
It's Finally Here!!!
Hello everybody it's me Laila.Well i'd guessed i don't really need to introduce myself anymore.From what i can see, Ibu adores me so much that she's beginning to flood her blog with her own versions of stories about me and mostly candid snapshots of me.Anyway why am i blogging in my ibu's blog?Well that's because Ibu's always busy & i need to attract some attention, particularly my godmums *hint hint* Auntie Ain & Auntie Rai.
Finally i have something to show and be proud of, but before that check out these poses...
The "wanted" look
Ahh...That's more like it,i'm smiling a bit :)
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Tadaaa!!!!
I've gotten my very 1st biometric passport at last!!!
But before that....
Ahhh for now i wanna sleep & dream of holidaying in paradise...*hint hint* Christmas Island perhaps Ibu? (",)
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Tuesday, 14 November 2006
Hey Raya....Part 2
So much of an overdue blog entry.The Squad Team Berhari Raya on the 4th November 2006.I think this year of jln2 raya with the gang was a steady and relek2 one corner affair.Why?Well tats becoz we didn't have a very fix plan of whose place to go 1st,so on and so forth and that we'd spent quite a long time sitting,eating and chatting to catch up with the old times.Nevertheless we'd really enjoyed ourselves especially with the 2 lil kiddos in the house, yeah the cabbage patch kid baby zuhair and my lil laila.Always in the land of their own.Zuhair wit his lil dancing or shud i say "goyang his upper body" to the tune of songs and my lil Laila deep in her sleep. Ouh yah,si Zuhair ni pon dah pandai main2 mata dengan anak aku.Hahaha.So cute.To Rai,lermaks my thousand apologies coz kuih makmur aku yg famous tuh dah out of stock bila korang sumer dtg.Tunggu nxt yr lah eh :p.
Snippets of our Squad Team Berhari Raya.....
A babe,A mummy & a lil babe in the making....
The Inseparatable blood sistas...
At Hairil's Crib....The 3 babes...Rai,Noi,Ain...The 2 Mummies,Mar & Su...& lil babe Laila
At Hairil's Place...where we'd eaten lotsa cheesecakes...
Ain practising being a Mummy
Our 1st Meet-up Point...Noi's home.Tuan rumah masak nasi minyak...yum..yum...
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Friday, 10 November 2006
Sick.....
I'm down with flu for 2 days now.My whole body aches big time and i feel so bloody weak.My doc gave me bloody drowsy medications too.For the past 2 days,i couldn't kiss Laila like i've always do.Afraid that she will catch the flu bug from me, so i'd taken extra precautions on hygiene and close contacts.It feels so weird that i couldn't kiss her.I'm missing her cute chubby cheeks already.Eeeeeeeeeeeee.Gerammmmmmmmm......Anyway sick or not this mummy had brought her baby to Vivocity.Hee it was more like the mummy whom was very eager to get down to Vivocity.The place was heeeeeeeeugeeeeeeee...and I fancied the place where there were the play pools.I didn't venture the whole of Vivocity yet as I was there only to have a late dinner.
By the way, i've also managed to get Laila posed for her 1st passport photos.Yes..i repeat photos.She was so cute i tell you.It was a "giggly" affair as we tried to capture her attention to the camera lens.Laila had 3 shots taken.I couldn't decide which pose should be developed and so i'd settled for 2 of the poses which Laila had taken.I haven't manage to put up Laila's cute passport photo shots online yet as I've been busy.For those who wants to see her photos badly,i'll upload soon aite (",).
So...Laila will get her very 1st biometric passport within this week.I'm soooooo excited.Heeee even Aunty Rai had suggested of going J.B.Wuakakaka ("p).
Hmm tats bout it for now & yah i still haven't upload the Raya pics with the Squammies.Will do so when i find the time.For now adios...
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Tuesday, 31 October 2006
Hey Raya!!! Sana Sini Open House.... (Part 1)
Its been a week of Raya oredi but the atmosphere of this joyous occassion is still being felt everywhere,especially with open houses sprouting everywhere.And of course food are always associated with open houses.Yummy raya dishes and delicacies which are simply too good to resist.Tsk tsk tsk.There goes my dieting regime.Anyway speaking of open houses, Mr Hip Hop Guy Shahfii a.k.a Aludra had invited me over to his home at Tampines for his raya open house last friday.And ouh boy i'd really eat a lot over at his place!Lol.Comparing with the other open houses i've been to,his place served the finest and bestest Raya dishes and delicacies.I must thank his mum too for packing the raya dishes for me to bring back home.Hehehe...eh aku tak mintak eh!!Lol.Anyway Fee if you happened to read this entry please send my regards to your mum and thank her again yah.Tell her that her cooking's simply syiok and sedap ("p).Anyway besides the food, i'd enjoyed myself especially with the warm hospitality of Fee's family. It was my first time meeting his family but they are indeed warm and friendly folks.Well more Raya celebrations coming up with this coming Saturday the 4th which i'm really looking forward to.The Squad Team will be going out for jalan2 raya!!Heee i'm sooooooooo excited to meet up with the rest of them.Its been 2 months hokay since i'd last really hang out with them.Tiz time round 2 Squad Team Juniors will be joining also, my lovable baby Laila & chubby baby Zuhair.More reasons to snap photos especially with these 2 adorable kiddos around!
So to my other squammies, don't forget to glam up with your colourful baju melayu yah!!
More updates to come, so stay tuned :)
With Anugerah's Syed Azmir,selalu nampak dia pat tv aje dapat jugak jumpa & borak2 with him in person.A friendly & funny chap.Senyum Azmir jangan tak senyum...
With the tuan rumah Shahfii & Rama TripleNoize together with my husband Iwan
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Monday, 23 October 2006
Sebening Syawal.....
Malam nih sesudah azan maghrib dilaungkan,berakhirlah sebulan kita berada di dalam bulan yang penuh suci & barakah,bulan Ramadhan.Selepas sahaja laungan azan maghrib umat Islam akan bertakbir beramai-ramai.Memang tak dinafikan tiap2 kali bila dengar takbir hati kita serta merta menjadi sayu.Aku tak terkecuali.Bila dengar takbir nih aku serta merta pon boleh titiskan air mata.Apalagi mengenangkan orang2 yang sudah tiada lagi...ahli2 kubur akan kembali ke tempat asal mereka.
Semoga amalan2 yang kita buat selama ni terutama sekali dalam bulan Ramadhan ni akan diterima olehNya.Insya-Allah.
Buat semua yang mengenali diri ini,aku ingin mengambil kesempatan ini untuk memohon ampun dan maaf sekiranya terdapat kekasaran bahasa tutur bicara & kesalahan2 yang mungkin secara sengaja ataupun tidak sengaja.Aku seikhlas hati juga memohon beribu kemaafan sekiranya ada pihak2 yang tersinggung bila menjenguk blog aku yang tidak seberapa ini.Sesungguhnya aku hanya meluahkan isi hati dan buah fikiran yang tidak disasarkan kepada orang2 yang tertentu.
Kepada semua yang tidak jemu2 dan pembaca2 setia blog aku ni,salam manis dan salam sayang dariku untuk semua....Minal Aidil Wal Faiizin...Salam Aidilfitri....
Monday, 23 October 2006
Sana Sini Bazaar Geylang soundtrack lagu movie "Heart"....Antara Nilai Sebuah Persahabatan dan Percintaan...
RACHEL (Nirina Zubir) is a young energetic tomboy, looking unconcerned but smart and full of initiative - while FAREL (Irwansyah) is a handsome, creative, full of suprises young man. They grew up together and have been friends since childhood. They filled each other's life so much that there'd be no Rachel without Farel around. Their togetherness was so full of joy, laughter and happiness until they grew up. One day at the bookshop Farel meets a young pretty LUNA (Acha Septriasa), a comic writer. Her books tell a story of a dying and lonely fairy. It was love at first sight for Farel and he confides to Rachel that he had met his dream girl. As a good friend, there was nothing Rachel could do except to give her best to support Farel and help wins Luna's heart. In her efforts suddenly Rachel feels jealous, something she had never felt before. Being in this situation made Rachel begin to loose her identity. Slowly she tries to change her appearance to look more feminine. Subconsciously all Rachel wanted was to get Farel's attention because she was afraid of losing him. For some reason Luna keeps rejecting Farel's love, but with Rachel's efforts in convincing Luna, she finally accepted Farel in her heart.
As Luna and Farel enjoy the time of their lives, Rachel is drowned in loneliness. To cover up her bitterness Rachel makes up a story about a boyfriend. The great love he has for her. One day Rachel accidently sees Luna and Farel kissing passionately. Rachel's heart burned up with jealousy. She went amuck then ran away with no direction, resulting in an accident and causing her legs to be amputated. The same time on their happiest moment, Luna had suddently become sick. Both Luna and Rachel are admitted to the same hosiptal. It was there that Rachel eventually saw how deeply Farel loved Luna and how Luna at her most critical time, desperately needed a donor for her heart from the cirrhosis she has suffered.
*Secara konklusinya (tetiber ckp indonesia), filem Heart ni penuh dgn nilai persahabatan & percintaan yang tinggi. Walaupun pada mulanya tidak menerima pada peringkat awal tetapi penghujung cerita ini akhirnya hubungan persahabatan mereka menjadi sepasang kekasih. Transformasi dr persahabatan kepada percintaan menjadi tema dlm filem ini.
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Tuesday, 17 October 2006
Hmm Mood Nak Beraya???
Uncle Peter,my late dad's best friend and ex-collegue came to visit my family this morning.It's been about 3 years since he'd last visited us.Yeah and its been 3 years too Papa left us.His visit to our home was rather a surprise one.The last time was when we held Papa's funeral.Uncle Peter's still the same man my family have known all this while.I have to admit the "meeting" was rather emotional lah.Reminiscing of the past.Well i'm glad that Uncle Peter still remembered us.Anyways..pejam celik pejam celik,tak lama lagi umat Islam sedunia akan menyambut kedatangan Syawal menandakan berakhir sudah sebulan kita berpuasa dan juga hari untuk semua berhari raya.Macam mana dengan persiapan raya korang semua?Mesti ada yang dah sibuk kan buat kuih2 raya & yang nak last2 minit shopping beli baju untuk beraya.Untuk aku pulak, raya kali ni tak banyak sangat bezanya dengan tahun yang sudah2.Mood aku beraya takderlah excited.Zaman2 tuh semua dah berlalu,almaklum bila masih budak2 lagi kalau sebut raya nak dekat jek punyalah ghairah nak bercollection.Hmm tunggu jek bila Laila dah besar skit,mungkin aku boleh share keghairahan dier beraya :)
Semalam aku baru buat kuih raya yang pertama.Cornflakes cookies.Bolehlah aku dengan adik pompuan aku bersengkang mata pat dapur.Mama pon siang2 dah declare,tahun ni dier nak relek.
Aku pon ada banyak urusan,tapi aku tak ikutkan sangatlah penat aku ni.Just do it.Kalau tak sampai bila pon tak habis2. For now aku take 5 jap dengan tangkap emo dengarkan lagu2 raya.Lagu raya yang tgh main pat blog aku ni skarang.1st song Sepasang Kurung Biru.Favourite aku.Really Haizz...memories...memories...memories...The sweet ones...The sad ones...*day dreams*
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Friday, 13 October 2006
Qu'est-ce qu'elle est mignonne!
I'd discovered something new about Laila which i find it rather amusing and of course her being the cute little one.Whenever she's engaged with "the call of nature business" she will usually do it in silence which only involves of her "cramped" facial expressions and her legs kicking in mid air trying to push hard on her poo poo to come out.One early morning, I happen to see her caught in the act of her "lil business".And so...yours truly came up sitting by the side of Laila's cot with the count of "1!2!3!" said "Urkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!Urkkkkkkkkk!!Urkkkkkkkkk!!" continuously, the universal sound expression to aid her with the "pushing".Ahaks.The lil one with her cramped face looked at her Mommy in the face.Maybe she's wondering what on earth is her mommy doing.A few days passed and once again i'd happened to see her in her "lil act".This time round it was no longer a "silent" business for her.I was at the living room watching tv when i'd heard it.A short "Urkkk!!".Silent.Then it goes again "Urkk!!"
I rushed to the bedroom to see the lil one,her face still cramped and there in front of me again her soft shriek "Urkkkk!!".Then i saw another style she came up with.Her legs no longer kicked in the mid air trying to push but instead she stretched her legs straight, almost to an angle of 45 degrees while making the "Urkk!!Urkk!!" sound.LOL.I couldn't help giggling observing her new "act".So now Laila's got a new signal if she wants her mommy to change her diapers after her "poo"ing.LOL.More discoveries to come Laila :)
Check this out....
Pic taken at my cuzzin's wedding not too long ago,in late July, before i gave birth to Laila.Hmm i guessed its not only me "growing".Look at my bro Faizal...i think he became rather plump too.
Pic taken in mid August when i was about 8 mths pregnant,the "hip" Mak Buyung.Did you know that i've never worn any maternity dresses?And that i prefer to wear stretchable pants and tops?Says who pregnant women can't dress up?That month too witnessed the very "unexpected" early delivery of baby Laila on the 31st of August.
My very latest pic taken 2 days ago posing together with Laila in the baby's sling.Hahahaha..How do I look like an Indon maid? ("p)
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Saturday, 7 October 2006
The Name Game....
Several days ago my bro Faizal posted an entry on his blog mentioning how a name plays a role in our everyday lives.Anyway my entry here has got nothing to do with his.Well then take a look at this pic....
Pardon me for the quality of the picture,its kinda blurry i know.A very "nostalgic" photograph i must say.It was taken like years..years ago when i was in pri 2/7,Eunos Primary School (EPS).The times when i was in the "Ribena" fellowship.Lol.So u guys can make a guess which one's me?
I'd came across this pic when i'd browsed through some old albums at home.I took a long time looking at it trying to recollect the memories when i was in primary school.Back then i was really low profile and a very shy person.Idasie and Mia would have known :p
So wat's with the pic?Somehow when i was looking at the pic,my mind wandered off thinking what could possibly happened to the rest of my ex-classmates and even had the thought of wat's the possibility of meeting one of them again,now all grown up.
And so yesterday when i was checking my Friendster inbox, a guy by the name of Shahendra e-mailed me claiming that he used to be my ex-classmate.I'd clicked on his message to view his complete profile and saw several of his pics posted on his Friendster page.I'd tried hard but i couldn't match his name to the faces whom i'd remembered.Of course it was not easy to match his present pic now to those faces years back.Mind you he even remembered my full name and my late dad's name!
I was really blur.Who is this guy man...and so i'd replied back to him asking him his full name and the classes he'd attended in EPS.Shahendra replied back to my message on the same day and he told me that we used to be together in the same class for 4 consecutive years.I still couldn't remember who this guy was.Then he mentioned something about a class photograph which he still keeps.He didn't mentioned though when the photograph was taken.Shahendra went a step ahead,he'd promised to send me a copy of the photograph scanned and send to my personal e-mail account.Well that could personally helps me to remember.And so today when i'd logged into my Yahoo! email,saw his e-mail subject together with an attachment.Guess what did i see right in front of my eyes? It's exactly the same photograph which i've kept for years in my old album collections!!!! I was too stunt for words.He'd even highlighted which one's him in that e-mail.And ouh that's him alright.Gee,he'd looked so much different as compared to now.Much more chubbier lah.Hmm so much for a coincidence aiy.I was amused with myself and shame on me for forgetting an ex-classmate.Anyway, it was nice that he could still remember me,the very low profiled,shy and timid girl ;p
Then again i'll continue to wonder how come there's like so much of coincidences happening in my life.Hmmmm.............
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Monday, 2 October 2006
And When the Hips Don't Lie....
Alhamdulillah,today marked the 4th day of me fasting during Ramadhan,a week later since the official 1st day of the fasting month. I felt so much better and good about myself that i've managed to fast without any complications.In fact, personally i think my body doesn't give me much problems despite what my doctors had predicted and advised for my confinement period.Speaking of confinement,ouh well i'm enjoying every minute of it since i have all the time to myself and my family, even though i have to admit that it gets pretty too boring sometimes (blame it on my Mama's strict rules & regulations).During this confinement period, i did what my Mama does best full-time...running & settling of household errands.Well it's not easy to be a full-time homemaker i tell ya,especially if its a big family.There is always work to be done around in the house.
Anyway,my confinement period will officially end in about a week's time.I certainly can't wait to bring my baby out and yes certainly i missed doing something so much that is SHOPPING!!!Wuakakaka...and yes i think there's more reasons now for me to shop,shop and SHOP.Baby Laila certainly needs stuffs of her own and yes she DEFINITELY craved to breathe the outside world just like her ibu!And ouh yes baby Laila can finally meet up with her godfamily full squad!
Right now, I certainly can't wait to get back into my workout attire & my pair of track shoes.Its been a very long time since i did some serious exercising.The last time when i weigh myself at the hospital just before Laila's delivery was 54kg.And 3 days ago when i weigh myself again,the bathroom scale read 47kg.I'm still not satisfied yet especially with the area around my hips.And ouh boy,those hips certainly don't lie.They've gotten wider.Even my younger sis jokingly made a funny and sarcastic remark to me..."gosh akak...your hips and buttocks certainly looked like Russia on the map"....yeah so much of a compliment Zura :p. I can't help sharing a laughter with my younger sis when she made that joke.But seriously, its not just the hips lah which i'm concerned.Certainly i want to regain the shape of my "old body",my health and my energy back again. Thankfully,i'm still able to fit into most of the clothes in my wardrobe.Phew!
The moral of the story...MUMS DO KNOW BEST. I must say all her efforts in "taking care" of me in terms of my diet and well-being paid off.No cold beverages.No oily food.No excessive rice.No snacking at night.More vegetables.More meat.More milk.More jamu...more jamu..more jamu...more jamu...more jamu...more jamu....need i say more? Ok Mama,i'll take back my words and i won't complain again.I promise.Thank you Mama.
About an hour left before breaking fast time.Before i end my entry for the day today,i have some shoutouts to make...
1) A very happy 24th belated birthday (well not so belated),to Amir Sulaiman whose b'day was yesterday....you bet i'm gonna get back my "Marie France" body shape.Hahaha..Yeah rite Amir.Be happy,stay crappy and stay as a genius always.And NO you can't date Laila when she's already 18 coz you have Lydia already ("p).On a serious note,my very best wishes goes to you pal and viva to our long-life friendship.Insya-Allah.Amin.
2) To the mummys-to-be...Nadia,Indahsari & Leila,happy expecting and please please please do take care of yourselves and the babies.
3) To Kamal, get well soon.Lain kali kalau ko naik motor tuh concentrate lah tgk jln pat depan tuh dan bukan di tempat2 lain iyer.Nasib baik gigi ko jek yg patah,kalau tak saper nak jawab?Jgn accident2 lagik arr ok.For now enjoy your long medical leave and yeah all the best to you & your new job as a prison warden.
4) Happy Children's Day to all children in the world,especially to my cute lil brother,Laila's uncle...Shafiq.
5) And last but not least....happy 1st month to ibu's dearest lil angel,Laila Auni Qistina....Ibu Loves You!!!! *Kish* Kish*
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Monday, 25 September 2006
Ketenangan Dalam Kekalutan(muddle/confusion)
Selangkah demi selangkahSetahun sudah pun berlalu
Masa yang pantas berlalu
Hingga tak terasa ku berada
Di bulan Ramadhan semula....
Seperti mana lirik lagu Harapan Ramadhan kumpulan Raihan,diam tak diam dah setahun masa meninggalkan kita.Syukur alhamdulillah,kita dipanjangkan umur dan berpeluang sekali lagi untuk menempuh bulan yang penuh barakah dan suci ini. Setiap kali bila tiba bulan Ramadhan ni,fikiran aku selalu melayang terkenangkan pengalaman dan peristiwa2 yang pernah aku lalui dulu.Hmm eh wait..aku tipu diri aku sendiri,kalau tak bulan puasa pon aku rasa kalau tak banyak at least sikit mesti ada yang aku terkenang dalam otak aku ni. Banyak pengalaman dan kenangan pahit manis yang takkan lenyap atau aku lupakan daripada ingatan aku.Rasanya macam those events happened just so recently.
Empat tahun yang lepas,time zaman2 masih digelar budak poly,masa term break, aku kena juggle time between school assignments/projects dengan short term keje part-time.Kalau nak ckp pasal keje2 part-time ni,aku rasa mcm2 kerja yg dah pernah aku buat.Kerja admin pat satu company broker saham,keje sales (yang ni paling banyak aku buat),from selling books at the weekend flea markets,bookstore,direct selling of home products(ni blom lagi aku eleborate keje door-to-door selling yg nak kena angkat beg sebesar besar tidak, dah macam nak kalahkan army masuk hutan,satu hari kena attack 2 or 3 flats,from the top to bottom units ketuk rumah orang jual barang,just to achieve the targeted sales quota).Haha come to think of it bila aku fikir2 kan balik,aku geli hati dengan diri sendiri.On top of that sometimes kalau ada masa terluang aku buat skit ar keje2 charity.Itu pon kalau masa tuh aku tak terlalu sibuk sangat dengan tarian practices for school or outside performances.Perkataan penat tuh memang dah lama sebati dengan aku.Kadang2 aku pon complain jugak banyak sangat agenda yang aku ada,tapi yang peliknya makin aku complain,makin tekun & makin banyak agenda yang aku buat.Kepuasan tiap kali aku berjaya dengan agenda2 yg aku buat memang tiada tolok bandingannya.No words can really describe the satisfaction especially when you're loving what you're doing and that you've made it a success.
Antara kenangan kerja yang sampai skarang masih aku ingat,masa baru2 aku abis final year pat TP.Even before i'd graduated aku dah sibuk2 cari kerja.Tahun tuh jugak nasib aku malang sekali.Arwah papa ditimpa kemalangan pat tempat kerja dia.Arwah papa satu2 nya sahaja tempat aku sekeluarga bergantung sebagai sumber pencarian.The news of arwah papa's accident came just about 2 weeks before i went through my final year examinations.My mum contacted my hp to inform about tat piece of bad news masa aku tgh tunggu pat luar class for the "Digital Techniques" lab sesion.My whole class witnessed what actually had happened to me.Aku dah menangis melalak lalak and within seconds semua orang dah berkerumun kelilingkan aku trying to console me.Even those guys yg suka menyakat aku took a pity on me,ramai2 escort aku kluar sekolah and flagged a taxi for me to go to CGH.
Yang hal aku pulak,aku dah jadi macam orang yg tak tentu arah.I was very very near in giving up my studies.Totally no interest at all.But i was very fortunate to be surrounded with good friends yang tak jemu2 berikan aku perangsang.My class's Care Person(CP),lecturers and even my final year project manager,Dr Hwang from SGH understood the plight that i was going through and went all the way to help me and my family in facing the crisis.When my late dad was transferred to TTSH,i'd spent everyday making trips to the hospital after school.I did my final examinations revision there beside my late dad's hospital bed.Armed with a piece of my cardigan,i'd endured the freezing air-conditioning of the high dependancy ward going through my exam notes and books.Sampai terlentok lentok aku dibuatnya.My late dad remained hospitalized at ttsh for almost half a year.He was the longest stayer of the ward.I'd befriended with the team of nurses and the doctors whom were responsible in looking after and cater to my dad's needs to recover.Due to the freak accident,my late dad became quadriplegic and has no complete control of his four limbs.
Slowly i'd regained back my courage to go on with life and to redhawith the Almighty's qada'& qadar.Mungkin rezeki aku jugak,masa tuh jugak aku dapat job opportunities.Well,getting 2 jobs at the same time.Thanks to Rai jugak coz sebab dier aku dapat kerja kat Wisma Mendaki.Makin semangat lagi aku berkerja sebab aku dapat tengok muka sahabat karib aku tiap2 hari.After office hours pat Mendaki,aku sambung pulak dgn kerja part-time pat Guardian pharmacy.Thanks to my poly fren Diana yg "tarik' aku masuk jadi keluarga Guardian pharmacy pat Marine Terrace.I was very fortunate coz the distance between my 2 work places was kinda near,just a few bus stops away.Penat..memang penat.Apa ke tidak kerja terus menerus dari pagi sampai nak dekat lewat mlm.Kalau kena hari2 yg nasib tak baik,aku kena kerja sendiri, jaga tuh pharmacy sendiri,tutup kedai pon sendiri.Really pathetic."Enjoyment" aku hanya pat tempat tempat keje aku tuh.Stress lah jugak dengan keje tapi oleh kerana tempat2 keje tuh collegues sumer fun & happening,sikit sebanyak aku rasa jugak terhibur dengan telatah dan kerenah2 dorang,buatkan aku lupa sejenak perasaan duka aku.Bila sampai bulan Ramadhan pulak,jarang sekali aku dapat berbuka pat rumah.Pat pharmacy jugak jawabnya.Makanan untuk berbuka pon ringkas jek.I was a fan of 7-11's instant noodles and tim sum.Lama jugak aku kerja pat Mendaki dengan Guardian Pharmacy,sampailah the ceremonial day yang aku dapat poly diploma aku.Sedih sebab Mama aku je yang dapat datang tengok ceremony tuh.Terkilan arwah papa tak dapat bersama sama dengan aku untuk berkongsi kegembiraan.By then my family had already taken care of my late dad at home when he was finally discharged from TTSH.For the next half a year,cared and looked after him till the day he passed away.Haizz eversince he was gone,life took a different turn for me.As much as i could be,i tried to stand on my own feet to support and be there for my family.My real good friends have always been there for me.At the same time too i've made circles of friends from the Internet just to keep my mind off of not thinking too much of the sadness of losing someone whom i closely relate to,my late dad. Dalam masa itu jugak aku dapat berkenalan dengan insan2 yg berhati mulia from the Internet.Ada jugaklah orang2 macam gini yang aku boleh click dan sampai sekarang pon masih aku berkawan.Haizzz aku boleh dikatakan seorang yang penuh misteri.Aku juga seorang yang perahsia.Banyak peristiwa2 yang dah berlaku dan tak mungkin aku lupakan sampai bila2.Tak usahlah aku sebut2 di sini.Biarlah segala apa yang berlalu tuh hanya aku saja yang ketahui atau diketahui diantara aku dan orang2 yang terbabit sahaja.
Pada bulan Ramadhan kali ini,aku menyambut dengan tanggungjawab baru sebagai seorang isteri dan juga seorang ibu.Alhamdulillah,aku bersyukur kerana diberikanNya aku kesihatan, rezeki dan dikurniakan seorang cahaya mata untuk penghibur hati.Aku akan terus berdoa semoga kebahagian akan terus disampingku dan kesihatan yang berpanjangan agar aku dapat terus mendidik anak aku selagi hayat dikandung badan.Insya-Allah.
Selangkah demi selangkah...
Dengan rahmatMu oh Tuhanku...
Ku tempuh jua.....
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Thursday, 21 September 2006
No Promises
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don't want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time..
No promises
I don't wanna run away, I don't wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love
No promises
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.
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Tuesday, 19 September 2006
Ibu!! Ibu!! Oh Ibu!!!!!!
Presenting Laila Auni Qistina at 20 days old......
Hey cut it off!! I'm all stripped naked. Can't you just wait till i finish my bath before snapping my photo?!!
My favourite lil activity after my shower...story-telling time by Ibu...she reads to me my favourite books.I'm mesmerized,the expression on my face says it all
The book which Ibu had read to me today...
Ouh yeah Aunty Rai,by the way,as you can see from what Ibu had read to me, elephants do have TAILS!!Ooopsss...*chuckles*. can't wait to go to the zoo with my godmums *hint hint*
The magical wonders of Ibu's milk...I'm all full and contented (",). Look out baby Zuhair...I'll be the next cabbage-patch-kid!!Hehehe.. And ouhh I simply love Ibu's voice when she serenades me to sleep (",)
My favourite past time for the moment...getting my "beauty" sleep.I'll grow up to be the next sweetest and lovely girl,just like my Ibu (",)
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Friday, 15 September 2006
The Final Showdown....
Today is the last day of my "urut" session with the makcik urut from Tampines,Cik Saniah after enduring and enjoying a solid week of her very skillful hands massaging me from head to toe.I could still remember how I'd dreaded the 1st few days having Cik Saniah to massage me.My entire body was totally weak with aching muscles,my head was always spinning,the surgical stitches down there was painful and worst, top of it all my boobies became really sore,"bigger" and engorged, a sign that its producing milk for the baby.Needless to say that i'd kinda suffered,my rest and sleep became badly affected and most of the time i could only shed out and fight against the silent tears.The pain was unbearable.You see its not easy being pregnant.You have to overcome 3 stages of pain.The extra weight of the baby you have to carry throughout those 9 mths ( well in my case it's 8mths 4 days)pregnancy period.Those Braxton Hicks contraction happening in later part of the pregnancy.Then there were the painful contractions & labour pains on the verge of giving birth and finally the aftermath of the delivery..mind you i have to undergo 6 hours of labour in that cold labour ward.Masya-Allah.God knows how i'd actually felt.Before Laila was born, i'd pledged to be a loyal breastfeeding (BF) mum.I'd always love to read up on matters related to pregnancy and birth.I was kinda devastated when initially Laila had trouble adjusting to BF. I felt as though i'm useless...what kind of a mother am i that couldn't even get her baby to feed on her milk.I was even more stressful when the doctors confirmed that Laila's jaundice levels soared up and she has to stay longer at the hospital.Those tiring trips to and fro the hospital and polyclinics when i was actually supposed to have my "confinement" weeks in peace.Alhamdulillah,things are slowly getting better for both mommy and baby.I'm enjoying every single & precious moments together with her.Feeding her.Bathing her.Changing her.Talking to her.Putting her to sleep.Reading to her.To see her cute,lil precious smile,she really makes my day meaningful.For once,eversince Laila came into my life,she was like an angel sent down for me.She clears my sadness, blues and worries away just the way like Hady Mirza do ;)
Anyway congrats to the 2 Idol finalists,Hady Mirza and Jonathan Leong.You guys rock and yes...they'd really deserved to be at where they are now.All the best to the both of them...See u guys at your very best on the Final Showdown...
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Tuesday, 12 September 2006
"Fearless Reporter" Lois "Di" Lane is now a Mommy......
31st August 2006.Thursday."Metropolis".The Daily Planet's resident reporter Lois "Di" Lane has finally given birth to a baby girl much earlier than the expected delivery date,September 28.The pre-term baby girl was delivered through a normal delivery at the Kandang Kerbau Women's and Children's Hospital by specialist Dr Marianne Hendricks.
It was reported that Lois "Di" Lane had experienced unusual abdominal pains and what she suspected of urinary incontinence was actually the "waterbag" leakage.The abdominal pains turned out to be labour contractions which started and then faded off every half an hour time interval.It was not long before the interval of the contractions gradually increased between approximately every 5 to 10 minutes.The "fearless" reporter endured a nerve-wrecking labour period of 6 hours without any usage of pain-relievers.Lois "Di" Lane's husband, Mr Riduan stayed at the delivery suite throughout to witness Lois "Di" Lane's labour process by her side.
At the official time of 0746hrs,the arrival of the baby weighing a total of 2415gms & 45cm tall, was greeted with an unexpected weather too..heavy showers occurring thoughout the country.
The baby was given the name Laila Auni Qistina from the arabic and persian derives meaning ("my lover","serenity" & "justice") consecutively.Lois "Di" Lane had strongly suggested in giving the name for her baby, based on her life journey and experiences throughout her 8 months 4 days pregnancy period.At the time this article was published, apart from Lois "Di" Lane's arranged blood transfusion, baby Laila Auni Qistina is still being closely monitored for her high level of jaundice but still stable condition.The "fearless" reporter has yet to be contacted by our reporter for further updates and comments on mommy and the baby.
Baby Laila Auni Qistina
Despite after tremendous hours undergoing labour pains and delivery,she still affords a weak smile :)
Ermm...was she eating or playing with her meal? Check out the chocolate box ;p
The godmums and baby Zuhair sharing the excitement...hey where's Aunt Rai?!
The star angel of attraction...ermm she has Aunt Rai's "cina" eyes indeed :p
Mommy Lois "Di" Lane with her little angel Laila Auni Qistina
(photo images courtesy of reporters aunt Jun,godmum ain and uncle "pekjal" Faizal.Deepest gratitude to fellow bloggers whom had featured Laila's birth on their blogs...Godmums Rai & Ain,my bro Faizal,Idasie & Syidot)
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Tuesday, 29 August 2006
I Need A Solitude..Let My Inspirations Burn Like An Inferno.Will You Be My Amanuensis?
Grrrrr....Grrrrr...Grrrrrr.....Meowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....
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Tuesday, 22 August 2006
The Lazy Blogging Syndrome Hits Me...
And yeah the title of my entry says it all.I'm becoming more and more lazy to update this blogspace of mine.Surely lotsa things had happened and yeah i noe tat i'm supposed to be making an important announcement.Still procrastinating though,i think i don't have the mood just as yet to break the news. 3 words to describe me now...i'm sick,lethargic and yes i feel like a zombie.It sure sucks when i'd missed on a lot of things happening around me like catching up with your best pals for celebrations and hangouts,missed my opportunity to meet up with the "cabbage patch kid" a.k.a baby Zuhair,wedding invitations,b'day invitation; the most very recent one being Dik Yon's bday pit at East Coast and yeah many other stuffs as well. Very well,i'm not sure though when i will have the time and the mood to blog again.To my faithful blog readers,i thank you for all the "get well soon" wishes that i'd been receiving all this while.
I'll be back.......
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Friday,11 August 2006
SMU Rehearsal Mini Concert Video ("Tears")
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Friday,5 August 2006
Beware of Imitation Halal Labels!!
I have to put this up to grab all of your attention pertaining to the subject of imitation halal certified foodstuffs as i had encountered this first hand myself.My mum had bought 2 boxes of these mini cakes from a minimart and little did she know that the halal certified logos on the boxes were imitations.These cakes were produced in Vietnam and were imported to be distributed in Singapore by a food importer outlet located at Paya Lebar. I'd only realized that these cakes were actually non-halal when i'd read the packaging on it. I'd already made an immediate feedback to the MUIS and alerted them on this matter...(patutlah aku rasa lain mcm jek biler aku dah bedal 3 packet mini cakes nih..ishh rupa2 nya ada alcohol!!)..
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Thursday,3 August 2006
"Tumpang Berlindung Waktu Susah dan Senang,Datang Berlindung Waktu Susah dan Senang"
"Sawadikap!" Hahaha...Finally i've made a comeback to savour the taste of the
sumptious and yummylicious Thaksin Thai beef noodles for dinner yesterday
evening.It's been donkey months since i'd gone to the Harbourfront hawker
centre,the last being there with a very close friend of mine. The noodles
still tasted the same..the good old flavour that first made me "fall in love"
instantly and has eversince became one of my favourite food (",). So far,there's
only 2 pple whom i'd already brought along to savour the beef noodles there.
And personally i think these 2 fellas have also "fallen in love" with the
exotic taste of the noodles...nak2 lagik satu budak ni semalam, yg dapat mkn
free tuh...berseri-seri senyum lebar dier.Kacau aku jek baru nak feeling2
lepak sorang2 minum hazelnut latte aku pat Starbucks Harbourfront.Ooppsss...hehehe...jgn
marah dah,senyum skit cik adik ("p).
Hmm nothing much interesting happened today...biasa2 aje.Dapat jugak aku kemas2
rumah tadik.Nowadays i'm getting more and more tired easily due to my growing
tummy,my baby's neverending active movements...especially its leg kickings
and yes of course the heavier me. A quick check on the bathroom scale indicates
that i'm now weighing at 54kg.Wow..in total i've gain 10kg.Just imagine the
weight of the lil fella in me alone.Subahanallah..a god's gift and wonder.
About 25 more days to D-Day (papers!).Argh.Anyway i'd received a mailer recently
from the NYP Alumni for an application of Emmanuel Undergraduate Bursary Award
& Financial Assistance Scheme for the programme of Bachelor of Business Administration,
at University of Canberra,Australia.Shucks...i'd read on and found out the
great opportunities the university has to offer.Aiy...ni yg kasi aku geram
jek ni....
Anyway, if you all are wondering what's the meaning behind my subject header today..i'd just visited Siti Nurhaliza's official website and read what she has to express with all the criticisms following her announcement to marry a "Datuk" recently. I'm no fan of Siti,i don't envy her nor do i hate her but getting to hear and read her stories from the media, i felt pitiful for her that she has to face all unhappiness,disagreements,criticisms coming from even her most loyal of fans.Poor girl....Haizzz ni lah ragam manusia....
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Tuesday,1 August 2006
The Legacy of Florence Nightingale...A Tribute to All Nurses
Today is a day where we commemerate the good deeds,the toil and contributions of a noble class of people who plays a very important role in our healthcare industry. I wanna take this opportunity to wish all nurses particularly my bestie sista Rai,Eda,Izah,my dearest Aunt Rohaya(p.s-hope you'll get well soon),the nurses from NICU, wards 6d & 10d frm TTSH (yr2002) whom had cared for my late Papa for almost a year(we were all like a family already) and all of the other nurses that i've established friendships with whom had cared and made an impact in my life....a very "Happy Nurses Day" to all of you.And to Rai...yeah i'd still remember back then in those days when you were always complaining about your nursing course in NYP and i'm really proud of you and glad when you'd finally graduated and that you didn't give up in continuing your profession as a nurse.You've made the right choice girl (",). I'd really understand and share the same "feelings" that you have after reading your blog entry.
May God bless all you kind people.... And ouhh yeah yeah...i'd almost forgotten one more thing.Hehehe...to one of my biggest fans of my Friendster profile and my personal blog..Ms Idasie...Wahidah..hehehe...A very Happy 24th B'day to YOU!
My very best wishes goes to you gal (",)
God Bless YOU too!!
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Sunday,30 July 2006
What A Week....
It's been a very sucky week for me...Lotsa things happened to me particularly and that explained why i didn't even bother to update my blog. Perhaps i'm just becoming cranky. I don't really know how to explain it.I'm bored and I'm lazy!! Arghh!!Anyway i'm not gonna rant over what a sucky whole week that i had here on my blog.Hah!!!That is sOOOoooo typical of you Di.....
Ok,let's move on and share about something else more interesting like what happened for the whole of yesterday.
Another new edition to the family tree..my elder gal cousin,Kak Juli finally got married to her long-time secondary school sweetheart, whom happened to be my poly senior frm TP's ITAS School.Haizzz...for that i really admire and salute them for the way they managed their very long term steady relationship.
Ouh i'd forgotten to mention that i'd met with some familiar faces that happened to be my cousin's invited guests. Like for the "mak andam's daughter" Kak Liz, whom was my senior in sec school and her bf,fiance or husband(haha i don't know their actual status,but they've been together since sec sch as well) whose also from the same sec sch as me.I'd forgotten his name though.Maybe Rai should know,as he was previously from NPCC. And yah i'd met "Ms Autarchic"..haha the cute and bubbly Mariah a fellow Malay Arts Group activist from TP's dikir barat girls. We were so excited when we'd met each other.Hahaha and i'd found out she's also my cousin's close work collegue. Gee..what a small world aiy.The wedding function was held for the whole day at blk 436,tampines st 43 from 3pm-9pm. Overall the whole wedding function was a simple affair but nevertheless it was fun and entertaining as we get together as families and relatives to grace my cousin's wedding function.Anyway here's yesterday's moments at the wedding event captured on camera by my siblings.
Ahhh ni dier si mak buyung tgh sibuk benar gubah tempat sirih dara untuk pengantin.Tahu tak korang di sebalik muka aku yg nampak "cool" jek tuh,masa dah betul2 suntuk.Apa ke tidak it's only an hour awy before rombongan pengantin lelaki dtg for the akad nikah!!Haizz betol nyer last minute due to some unforseen circumstances.Yelah it was supposed to be completed the day before at my cousin's place, tapi nenek aku yg sakit buat ragam pat rumah masa aku jaga dia.So nak dipendekkan cerita Mama aku pon terburu-buru balik Eunos untuk selamatkan keadaan.
Me and Mama doing the arrangement of the "sirih dara".I was sweating profusely as if i'd juz finished running the 2.4km.Even the wind blowing from that small fan is still insufficient for me.Lolz.Obviously from Mama's body language,she's way too kanchiong till it affects her inspiration to do the flower arrangement for the "sirih dara".Luckily, i was around to take charge and instruct her on what should be done, and yes in a calmly manner that is. ("p)
The "akad nikah" or solemnization ceremony was held at exactly 2p.m.My cousin's 3-rm flat packed to its core.The groom in his white wedding outfit came with his entourage. Pictured here was moments before the kadi began his "khutbah nikah" or the solemnization sermon.
The now official husband and wife in their solemnization outfits
My Family...frm left Faizal,Mama,Faris,Shafiq,Marzura,Me and Iwan at the corridor of my cousin's home before heading downstairs at the void deck for the reception
The pelamin under my cousin's void deck,decor by Hana's Bridal
Savouring our sumptious nasi bryani and yummy dishes from the wedding caterer Pelangi Indah.Adik2 aku berkali-kali round mkn juadah dia ("p).
With my siblings Marzura & Faris
Me and Iwan...shot by my bro Faizal after eating...benci senyum paksa...hmm aku dah gemuk...
Mana korang nak dpt mak andam bersuara power untuk karaoke?Cayalahhhhhh makcik!!!
The bride's parents...my Mak Ngah and Pak Ngah
My cousin's big family consisting of 5 of her other siblings.All girls.On the far left Abg Rizal,my Ngahs' 1st menantu.The cute chubby lil girl sitting in between my Ngahs is Nastasha, their grand-daughter...
To my cuzzin Kak Juli and her husband Abg Adi..wishing you both Selamat Pengantin Baru.May the both of you have a blissful marriage dan semoga mahligai yg dibina berkekalan hingga ke syurga.Insya-Allah.Amin....
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Friday ,21 July 2006
6 Weird Facts....
Arrrghhh....I'd been tagged again.Korang suka eh main game nih? ("p)This time round it's a tag from Idah.Hmm 6 weird facts about me...dunno if you'll find them weird enough...here goes...
1) I love to eat seafood,especially cuttlefish,prawns and cockles(kerang).Well can say that aku ni hantu makan kerang especially dgn sambal.Yum yum. But there lies the problem of my allergy to most seafood. Each time when i savour seafood, rashes will sprout all over my body after eating them. I will complain and complain about these rashes but yet i still regard seafood as one of my top priority of favourites. Weird?
2) Exams question papers.Ouh well nothing weird about them but whenever i get my exam question papers at school,i will start by looking and scribbling "key words" at the back pages first before actually doing my multiple choice questions.Haha..weird?
3) My expressions. i tend to express better how my feelings are on paper than showing physical expressions.Tats why my diary is my bestest friend.A weakness?But well,it surely does make me feel a lot better after that especially if i have a lot to write about. Weird?
4) I adore to see other beautiful ladies,elegant and lady-like,sweet like princesses or in Noi's word "manis mcm tuan Putz" haha...but please eh i don't like people calling me a PRINCESS.Urghhh!!Weird?
5) I eat banana fritters (goreng pisang dah...) and i don't eat banana fritters.Haha.Apa yg aku merepek?Ouhh well.Easy.Goreng pisang yg aku makan are only the goreng pisang from tiz roadside stall in J.B, and its eaten with "kicap".Haha.Exotic?Sedap ko kicap dier.And mind you i don't usually eat food which are sold from these roadside stalls and this is an exception.So usually after topping-up the bike petrol,i will never fail to buy the goreng pisang.Weird?
6) Chocolates makes me high.Tat is if i consume too much of it.I'll be a very crappy person and can't think straight of my own actions.Haha.Beware if there's a REAL joker around making jokes or anything funny,i will have problems to maintain/stop my laughing and it's not funny if you can't stop laughing.Weird??
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Wednesday ,19 July 2006
Red Eyed Peas....
Arghh!!!Fed up!!!Fed up!!!Not again!!!Woke up on the wrong side of the bed today with what it seems like a huge bag sitting on my head..yah lar the headaches what else and a sore left eye.Arghh!! Actually i could already see the symptoms since late last night.I find it weird though as this is already the second time in a month the sore eye syndrome hit me. And it's always my left eye. My left eye's kinda feel the strain,reddish and teary.Nak terbeliakkan mata pedih...nak tutup mata pon pedih.And of all times,why must it hit me like NOW?!!Stressnya aku tak leh bikin keje!! Apa yg aku plan dgn organize serba-serbi tak kena!!Arghh!!
Speaking of organize, yesterday in the early evening my baby stuffs were finally delivered to my home. The baby's sleeping cot,baby's dining high chair and the baby's rocking chair. The deliveryman came all the way from Yishun. Mcm takder lagi dekat lagi gitu kan...and worse still,that fella made me WAIT mcm buah tak jatuh!!! The deliveryman came really late which made me kinda pissed coz i was tired & wanna get some sleep first before getting up again later in the night, continue my mugging again. Worse still Iwan's not back home yet from his workplace.I kept on complaining to him that the deliveryman was so late, and dahlah tuh contact2 nak locate maner deliveryman tuh ade pon tak dapat and that made me wonder what could have possibly happened to tat fella.
And all he could reply was.."takperlah you just wait for a while more lah,nanti deliveryman tuh sampai jugak.I'll be home soon k". Grrrrrrr!!!Lagi satu hal nak tunggu dia balik.
The deliveryman finally made his appearance after my agony of waiting for 3 1/2 hours.Mata aku sampai naik layu dok menunggu.Sheesh.When i'd heard the doorbell to open the door for tat fella, i was already prepared to vent my anger and scold off that delivery fella. However,upon opening I saw this old poor chap working alone to send all the baby stuffs over to my place.He was perspiring and looked kinda breathless.Haizz...instantly entah aku tak tahu mcm mana, kemarahan aku yg meluap2 tadi strangely vanished and at the very moment aku pulak yg rasa kesian tengok tat fella kena antar barang sorang2. The deliveryman with his shaky voice constantly kept on apologising for his lateness and that he had not enough manpower to deliver the baby's stuffs. Found out that my items were the last ones to be delivered for the day. So oklah,at least he'd apologised and yah aku rasa "cooled down" sikit.My anger just vanished. Before he made his leave, I'd invited him for some refreshments of a cold drink and some biscuits. Sekali teguk ko dier abiskan air rootbeer tuh...isk..isk..pity old chap.Been a hard day's work for him i'd guess.
I have not opened up the boxes to assemble the baby's stuffs yet.Need to find time to do it.I'd objected to Iwan's idea of getting the baby the Moses baby basket.It's not really necessary anyway and i'd thought its membazir lah. Might as well get the baby's car safety seat,but not now lah,we'll have to wait for the baby to grow up for several months.Well he got to trust me on this since I'm more experienced in a way that i've seen the growing up years of my other younger siblings eversince they were still just infants.
Ouh yah,Iwan came back home with his parents to our place.Very much of an unexpected short visit.I think it's been almost a month since i'd last visited and met them.My mother-in-law (MIL) especially,wanted so much to come over and see me.To see how I'm coping with my health and yah of coz to see how big my tummy has now grown. As usual my in-laws brought bags of goodies all the way from JB. Haizz..speaking of JB, i wonder how's my auntie doing over there.Been a very long time since i'd last paid her a visit. My in-laws couldn't stay for long as they needed to get back as it'll be another working day for them the next day and yeah being elderly people they much needed their rest too as well. Before they took their leave, my in-laws gave some word of advices to Iwan and myself. They both knew that sometimes we've been through difficult times together.Biasalah hal rumahtangga memang lumrah...ada pasang, ada surutnya dengan bermacam-macam dugaan. Alhamdulillah aku bersyukur sebab in-laws aku ambil berat pasal diri aku as their menantu and yah we get alongwell with each other. And off in their new Hyundai Getz car,my in-laws headed straight back home...
That's it for now...more blabberings from me when i feel like blogging again.For now back to organizing,work and mugging....and yeah procrastinating whether shud i see my "good fren" the doctor again for my sore eye.EEEwwwwww....
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Tuesday ,18 July 2006
After All This Time
After all the broken stones, that were thrown for no good reason,Inside, she is loving him still, After all this time,
And though her heart bears the scars, no sign of healing,
It's alright, she is loving him still, After all this time
Trying to push the past away,
Still waiting for the lights to change,
But she'll try, try,
For the sake of their pride, pride,
Learning to barely feel the pain,
The thicker the skin the less the strain,
And though it's really hurting,
She ain't breakin, breakin, breakin,
Cos she is loving him still,
After all this time,
Now he knows, his weakness shows, selfish soul,
Never changing, but that's fine,
Cos she's loving him still, after all this time
And to the outside eye, you see a family getting by,
And it all seems perfect, and that's how she wants it,
Cos she's loving him still,
After all this time,
After all, after all, after all this time
Oh, bones, have to grow,
Age it shows, though we try and hide it,
Inside, she is loving him still, After all this time
And behind his tired eyes,
She sees the boy with his arms wide,
Who made her feel like an angel,
Oh that's whyâ?¦
She is loving him still,
For the rest of her life,
She is loving him still,
For the last so many miles,
She is loving him still,
After all this time
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Monday ,17 July 2006
A New Day...A New Week...Shout Out!!
I'd woke up super early today.Breakfast was juz a mug of hot milo and some plain biscuits to kick-start off another boring Monday.Sheesh.As usual my 1st daily routine is of course to check the daily headlines on the internet for local and global news.Unlike the past entries, don't expect me to blabber a lot for this current blog entry.For now i'm only interested to make a few shoutouts namely to....
1) My internet god brudder, Salehin...i would like to extend my warmest regards and congratulations upon your engagement to sis Sri,yesterday.I shall now wait to taste your 4 types of different specialty of gourmet "nasi" on your big day(remember the dream i told you abt?hehehe..*winks*)Insya-Allah.Wish you both all the very best.Yeah i sure do miss our frequent online MSN chats,but hey do still keep in touch aite thru our mobiles yah (",).
2) To my sis nursy missy Rai...ewah ewah today is a start that you enjoy your 1 week of balloted leave aiy. Happy holidaying at Tampines St 21 yah.Hehehe ("p).
3) To sis Ain..hey dear try to cheer up. Wateva s**t that u're going thru now at ur workplace, the war has just begun and remember that you're still in control of yourself. Don't give them a damn!! Oraite? One really big hug for you frm Mummy Di and baby.
4) To sis Noi...yeah like Ain..juz hang on there. If you already cannot tahan juz print out that poster you'd sent to the rest of us thru our e-mails and slam it down onto ur boss's desk.Heee!!!
Ouh well, i've decided to put up our "mtv" here which we'd done specially for Zam's b'day for our own amusement.Haha.Courtesy of Rai.She didn't put up tiz video on her blog though.Check out the Squad Team in action "jamming" at our sponsored studio(Rai's Hommie...hahaha)...(the guitarists..vocalists..tambourists & last but not least the "chopstick" drummer...tsk tsk tsk...LOL) ("p)
Smile everyone ...... (",)
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Saturday,15 July 2006
The Random Facts...You Choose Believe It or Not...(I've Been Tagged)
7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT MESmiley Lady
Always have this thirst of widening my knowledge
Very patient person, I don't lose my cool easily
Always forgiving
I'm not a self-centred person (as much as I can,I'll put others ahead of myself)
My weakness...I can easily get emotional when I'm sad and cry :(
Money isn't everything..(With much efforts,we can find money anytime.I always believe in this saying that goes.."takkan menjadi miskin atau papa jika kita selalu memberi dan tangan yg memberi itu lebih mulia dari yg menerima)...I treasure my loved ones the most. Money can't buy true love.
7 THINGS THAT SCARES ME
Death ( cukup ke amalan aku pat dunia ni?)
When I'm sick continuously
Losing my loved ones
Failure...(it'll take time to heal up the "wound",disappointment,sadness,anger etc.etc)
Lightning...
and of course accompanied by loud claps of thunder
Being a very lonely & sickly old person (provided if I'm granted with a long life,will I be able to see my loved ones,i.e my grown-up children,grandchildren care for me till my last remaining pieces of life?)
7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT
Superman...It's Not Easy (Five For Fighting)
Forever Love - X Japan
Sudah tuh Sudah - Imran Ajmain
Mimpi Yang Sempurna (Piano version) - Peterpan
Stay (Guitar acoustic) - Lisa Loeb
Hero - Nickelback
My own original pieces of songs
7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST
Ya-Allah.....
Aiy!
Sheesh!
Mepek!!
Ouh dear !
Abissss!!!
Arghh!!
10 Favs..
Favourite Colour : Blue.. (actually i have quite a few favs)
Favourite Food : Mum's Cooking
Favourite Song : Gee..too many can't think of one now (but i really love anything that has piano or acoustic guitars)
Favourite Movie : She's All That (My All time fav)
Favourite Sport : Viva La Soccer!!!
Favourite Day of the Week : Friday...TGIF!!
Favourite Ice Cream Flavour : Chocolate!
Favourite Car Model : Mitsubitshi Evo
Favourite Subject in School : History
Favourite Snacks : Cadbury's Chocolates
9 Current..
Current Mood : Tired
Current Taste : Fried Seafood Bee Hoon
Current Clothes : Night Sleeping Robe
Current Desktop : Anne Geddes's 3 cute babies dressed in "cactus" suits in flower pots :)
Current Toenail Colour : Didn't apply any colourings
Current Time : 11.50 p.m
Current Surroundings : Bedroom with Night Light switched on
Current Annoyance(s) : Perspire trickling down my back
Current Thoughts : My baby...what are u doing now in my tummy?
8 First(s)..
First Best Friend : The Late Irnawati Kalsom Binte Abdul Gani (my 1st best friend and bestest in pri sch but sadly our friendship only lasted for 4 years when she passed awy due to dengue fever..I'll always remember u sis..May your soul rest in peace.Al-Fatihah :(
First Crush : Norisran Kamsani a.k.a Yan Pendek (haha..my ex-sec sch senior...yes Rai& Noi, giggle all you can)
First Movie : Disney's Aladdin!! (Back then at the old Tampines Pavilion Cinema!!Haha)
First Piercing : 4 years old.
First Lie : Haha..I must say my very 1st BIG lie to my late dad,when i'd tried to cover up for destroying the living room's chandelier crystals,coz i'd played with a ball.I ended up getting a "whip" of his waist belt.Ouchhh!!
First Music : My late Dad's lullaby (Bintang Di Langit..and together with his chubby hands I'd oways like to play with,will never fail to put me to sleep)
First Car : Err..How bout bikes?
First Real Date Venue : Romantic...Magical...Unforgettable...dah mcm epilog cinta terlarang,and he was very priviledged coz I'd brought him to one of my secret hide-outs which we both will never forget :)
7 Last(s)..
Last Drink : Magnolia's Smoo Vanilla Milk
Last Car Ride : Ain's "Viosa" with the rest of the Squammies
Last Phone Call : My husband , Iwan
Last Song Played : Peterpan Mimpi Yg Sempurna
Last Food Ate : Cadbury Chocolate
Last Thing I do before I go to sleep : Recite some prayers and doa's
6 Have You Ever(s)..
Have you ever dated one of your best friends : No
Have you ever broken the law : Serious ones no lah...perhaps eating chewing gums?Haha
Have you ever been arrested : No
Have you ever skinned dipped : Err...meaning?
Have you ever been on TV : Ouh yes tiz Mat Yoyo telematch show ages back when i was a kiddo..hahaha
Have you ever kissed someone you didn't know : Yes...those lil kids at the orphanage and the old grannies at the old folk's home
5 Things You Are Wearing...
My Glasses
A ring
A rubber band on my wrist
My sleeping robe
Calvin Klein lingerie/undies
4 Things you have done today...
Do housework
Study
Read my novels
Pray
2 Things You Can't Live Without ...
Having knowledge of (duniawi), the useful knowledge that we need to survive in this present world.
Having knowledge of (uhkrawi),religious & spiritual knowledge of my religion Islam.
1 Thing You Do When You Are Bored
Listen to music
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Thursday,13 July 2006
Inspiration of the Day....
I was checking my Friendster account earlier this morning, and was greeted by pleasant messages coming into my inbox by several of my friends whom I have not heard for quite sometime and also not forgetting getting several "Smiles" from a few strangers.Ouh yeah, my thanks to khushi babe Izah for that short and sweet testimonial for me. You guys definitely brightened up my day today *winks* (",)And hey check out what's my horoscope has to say today...ouh well never mind that I'm not a real believer in this horoscope thingy...
Capricorn (Dec 22 - Jan 19)
The Bottom Line
You're no stranger to hard work, so any toil required now won't rattle you much.
In Detail
There's nothing quite like good, hard, honest work to remind you of the value of a dollar. Today requires you to go through a lot of effort, and the payoff might leave you less than thrilled. But the actual work will be very enjoyable and could introduce you to some new people, who in turn could introduce you to some new opportunities. Put another way, your efforts won't get rewarded with money -- you'll be paid in much more valuable ways.
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Wednesday,12 July 2006
My First......
2 days ago, I was tidying up my personal collection of memorable stuffs,items, clothes etc..etc when i'd stumbled upon these items...
This yellow woollen blanket above witnessed my arrival into this world like over 2 decades ago. This was the very blanket my Mum had used to wrapped me up in it on the day we were discharged from the old Kandang Kerbau Hospital (that building now has been converted into a Land Transport Authority Building).
My very 1st lil pair of booties and snow cap.Very cute isn't it? Just imagine my feets used to be snuggling inside those booties.Yepp, my Mum had used the cap everytime when we go out to cover my "baldy" head. Yes....i used to be a very baldy baby back then coz my Mum told me that my hair's growth rate was very slow indeed. That's where the pet name "Nana Botak" came from.Almost all of my relatives had known me by that name.Sheesh.
This was the very 1st "monkey suit" that had witnessed me for the 1st time when I'd crawled on my 4 limbs.
These were the only items left besides my baby photos that reminisced me of my growing up years as a baby. I'd managed to "save" these items from being thrown or donated away by my mum.Of course i couldn't really recapped those times when I was still a baby, but yeah having to keep these stuffs somehow reminded me that I used to be a daddy's girl and how my late dad doted so much on having me as his lil princess.Yepp..me,his lil princess no more when he'd left all of us here. Forever.
Looking back, I'm still glad because maybe the baby inside me could inherit my baby belongings. I'll be definitely touched to see my very own baby wearing those stuffs.
Anyway much of my time nowadays has been solely devoted in reading this book.....
It's a book on the practices during and after pregnancy as well a guide for naming newborn babies.I've always have this hunger for knowledge and this book proves to be a very comprehensive guide for me. Not only does it touches on the general wellness and tips for soon-to-be mummies but on also other Islamic guidance such as the reading of advisable and selected verses off the Quran.
Well my baby's sleeping cot will due to be delivered to my home sometime next week. In the meantime, I will still keep myself busy checking out the malls and more purchases of baby's products. And so my dear baby,that will mean more walking exercise for the two of us ("p)....
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Monday,10 July 2006
The Azzuris...World Cup Champions 2006
It was a final countdown at Berlin's Olympic Stadium.A night of triumph for the Italians and a night of tears for the French.Last night saw The Italians beat 10-man France 5-3 in a penalty shoot-out after Zinedine Zidane had been sent-off for a headbutt in extra-time. Yes...no doubt that Zizou had led the Frenchmen with an early goal in the 7th minute of the game with a penalty shootout, but he was sent-off in extra-time for ramming his head into Marco Materazzi's chest after an exchange of words. Zizou made a shameful exit as it was the France captain's final game before his retirement on the international soccer arena and he left the pitch for the changing room in tears.
The 1st half of the game saw Materazzi, the former Everton defender, scored an equaliser with a header from a corner and the game was locked at 1-1 after 120 minutes at extra-time that led to the final penalty shootout. The winning penalty was fired by Italian's left back Fabio Grosso that left the French keeper Fabien Barthez sunk on his knees.
Italian fans launched into a huge celebration as they became world champions for the first time since 1982, indeed a sweet and memorable victory for Italian boss Marcello Lippi and of course his dedicated team of players.
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Wednesday,5 July 2006
A Shattered German Dream...
Earlier this morning I'd witnessed how Jurgen Klinsmann's world cup dream was shattered by the 2 late Italian goals at the end of the extra time as Fabio Grosso and Alessandro Del Piero struck to secure a place for the Azzuri's in the World Cup Finals. Undeniably, Klinsmann's German team seemed to be an unstoppable force from the very beginning of the game with their Arsenal keeper Jens Lehmann protecting the German's fort.Trust me it was kinda a "draggy" game but yet exciting and full of suspense as the scoreline still remained at 0-0 as it approached the full-time mark and also an indication for the extra-time kick off.
Looking at the clock on the wall, I was already feeling restless as it was already nearly 5a.m and neither teams had scored a goal at the end of the 1st period of extra-time.Gee..God i'd said a silent prayer, please don't let it be another game with a penalty shootout to determine which team's gonna make it to the finals. Guessed the prayer was answered and at the 119th minute, with thanks to Fabio Grosso whom'd wakened up my dreamy and tiring eyes with a fantabulous goal,firing the Italians into the lead. A minute later and substitute Del Piero made it two after Gilardino slipped a pass to Del Piero and he scored the second with the last kick of the game, sending delirious Italy into their first World Cup final since 1994. A rush of excitement hits me as I'd rushed right in front of my tv screen and I'd leapt with joy. Lol.Yeah, i may not be a fan of the Italians but those 2 goals were superb and so unbelievable as it was only moments away the end of the 2nd period of extra-time.
The Italians will then later meet either Portugal or France as the 2nd semi-final match will be shown later at 2.50a.m,Thursday morning,local time. This time round I'm hoping for Luiz Felipe Scolari's Portugese force to win the match, yes the underdogs. Damn the Frenchmen for driving out my Brazilian dream team outta the world cup when they'd met during the quarter-finals.Grrrr!!!!!
For now...yes i know of one person whom will surely be all smiles right now after the Italian's magnificient victory earlier this morning..to big brudder Salehin, yes it's "viva Italia" for now...Ahaks ("p). And the fight of the Azzuris continues to the final showdown.....
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Sunday,2 July 2006
Listening in to.....
I Still...
Backstreet Boys
Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)
I try to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Ohhhhh (can't live without you)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you
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Friday,30 June 2006
My Mood? Japan's J-Rock....X-Japan...Tears
Still not feeling very well to update my blog actually.Anyway i've been listening to some J-Rock ballads recently courtesy of JJ whom had introduced me to one of Japan's phenomenal rock group of all-time, X-Japan.Thanks to tat cute Jap guy who played the piano,ouh yes!!am i so fascinated with the sounds of piano, which made me kinda hooked to it. Yes of course, my other fascination are for guitars and violins. Listening to X-Japan really reminds me of our late 80's and early 90's malay rock bands like Search & Wings.Lolz.Anyway the careers soared in the early 90's for the members of the X-Japan band.That was until 1998,when their former lead guitarist Hide,died tragically due to suicide.
Anyway,the song featured above is entitled "Tears", one of the band's hottest ballads besides others like "Forever Love" & "Crucify My Love"....
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Friday,23 June 2006
Hmm...What's There to Update Aiy??
Reading other peep's blogs made me realized one thing.The other bloggers
have rather complained about being lazy to update and that they have nothing
much of any interesting topics to share nowadays.
Even for myself, it's been more than a week since my last blog entry. It's
not that i'm lazy to update. I'm not sure for the rest of you, but believe
it or not, I still rely on my ever faithful good old diary (yes...the one
that you need to write on with a pen) to scribble down my daily encounters
and thoughts for the day. And yes, whenever i'm out everywhere i go, tiz lil'
book of companion follows me. I have to say that tiz lil' companion is actually
more elaborate with details on my day's happenings.
And so why do i still need an online blog? Reasons??
1) As a remedy for thoughts when i'm bored online cyberspace.(I can't live
a day without switching on the computer & of course surfing the Internet).
2) My ideas and thoughts. Sometimes they'd juz popped out of nowhere even
when i'm typing out to do work on my computer or juz plain rubbish.
3) When i need to shoutout to a certain group of people or to publicize something,
issues..etc..etc..
4) Keeping up with the trend,seems like most people nowadays own online blogs...(hahaha...i
noe tiz is a very lame excuse).
Anyway i have a shout-out to make. To my online friend Nura, its great meeting
up for lunch yesterday afternoon. Yeah, finally after so many turned downs
of lunch invites from Nura due to unforseen circumstances, i'd finally made
an effort and smsed Nura yesterday morning to arrange for our lunch date.And
ouh yeah its great to be introduced to your other office collegues, Dik Yon,Aini
& Sharon. Finally met them in person since you've always mentioned their names
on your blog.Hehehe.
Managed to take some shots with Nura and also her gang, on her camera after having our lunch
at Bugis's Liang Seah St, Ah Chew's Coffee Shop....
My 2 shots of picture-perfect poses with Nura on my Olympus....
The other 2 pics above with Nura's collegues courtesy of Nura's Cammie...teeheehee....
Lunch-time for was too short.Nura and her collegues had to go back to their office at Suntec.Just an hour spent to mingle with Nura and company. Thereafter I had to head down to Tampines Telepark for a meeting at 3p.m with the board.
After the meeting ended, i'd managed to do some shopping at Tampines Mall for babies clothes and window-shopping to look-out for the baby's cot and pram. I'm gonna be a mummy soon and as each day passes my anxiety grows just like the baby inside my tummy now. I can now feel so much often now of how its ticklish legs, kicks the walls of my tummy and its other moves. The baby's heartbeat too, I can really feel it. Thub-thumping juz like the mummy :). I guess my baby's excited too as well to see the outside world. And for once, i don't even care of how fat i've grown now.LOL. I've now gained like 10kg more. Now i have a weight of 52kg. Well tat means i need to follow strict guidelines especially on my diets after child-birth and intensive workout after my confinement period.Lol.
I guess tat's all the updates i have now. Meanwhile, its now time for me to head down again with the books again and yes well of course continue my thoughts on the list of what other baby names i can come up with....Toodles for now....
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Tuesday,13 June 2006
I Miss Dancing the Zapin Way!!!
Asli,Inang,Masri,Zapin and Joget.These are the 5 basic steps of the traditional malay dance.The video above was meant to be put up "eons" ago,but somehow when i came across my old tarian albums back,the memories of dancing to the tunes of traditional malay music came flooding back.Cheyyy...cheyyy...cheyyy..."feeling2 sendiri aku dah datang lagi"...
Anyway the video above was taken by a friend during one of the annual dance competition at bukit timah cc.If you could spot someone very familiar to you in that video dancing onstage.Hahaha... ("p)
Zapin has always been my most favourite dance tune to dance with.The dance steps are quite upbeat,agressive but yet at the same time potray the gracefulness of the person dancing to its tune.Anyway you guys enjoy watching the video...
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Monday,12 June 2006
How Mellow Can It Be....
Lately things have not quite worked well for me.Nowadays its easily for me to be pissed for the slightest reasons,even like getting the idea of forcing my insomniac self to sleep.And when i do get myself to sleep,often i will have these encounters of strange dreams,most of the times involving the same individuals.The cure?Well thank god for the World Cup games...it does help me to occupy my sleepless nights by tiring myself and retreat to sleep only till the wee hours of the morning.
Really nothing much to update about things happening to me...ouh yeah did i mentioned that i've becoming rather easily forgetful lately?
Earlier on tiz afternoon,i've attended the wedding of my ex-tarian friend from poly at Bukit Purmei.I'd misplaced her invitation card and I couldn't remember the venue of her wedding function.Luckily i've arranged to meet Noi and Faumi to go to the wedding together.Gee and yeah how "bozo" can i be,when i'd wanted to take photographs with the bride only to find out tat my digicam wasn't loaded with a battery!!Urghhh!!!Di!!!!!
It turned out that I'd also forgotten to place back the battery into my digicam and had totally forgotten to switch off the battery recharger adapter,the nite before....Sheesh.....Tat's it for now.
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Tuesday,6 June 2006
Lawak Pukul 3 Pagi ("p)....
Okie...i still can't get over the frustration of my spoilt handphone.Haizzzzzzz......gonna miss my precious handphone...Anyway as usual, still can't get my eyes to sleep.The usual excuse Di...my usual surfing and i came across this video on YouTube which made me laughed like hell in the wee hours of the morning.Bloody idiotic hell...oopsss better mind my language or my baby's gonna throw tantrums kicking my tummy to remind mummy not to use "explicit words".hehehe...sorry baby.Hee.
So wat's the video all about? I dunno how many times i've replayed the video over and over again much to my wicked amusement.Well see this for yourself then ("p).....WARNING: Not for the faint hearted..LOL
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Monday,5 June 2006
Something Stooopid....
Something stooopid happened yesterday...i think i've spoilt my precious hp.GREAT.I can't even get it to power on.Thanks to my "klumpziiiiinesss" of not noticing that the margarine from the cups of sweet corns in my bag had seeped through my hp's lcd screen.Haizzzz...so in the meantime peeps,please bear with me if you can't get your calls answered and smses unreplied.Sigh...sigh...sigh...i'll send my hp to the repair shop asap.----------------
Friday,2 June 2006
Demi Waktu
aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinyayang kini hadir diantara kita
namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu
yang slama ini temani hidupku
maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu
maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu
seandainya bila ku bisa memilih
kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya
mungkin semua tak kan seperti ini
dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku
membawa aku dalam kehancuran
(Di's note: The above entry are the lyrics to one of latest song by this Indon band, Ungu...Gee yes peeps,i have a craze for tiz indon band stuffs thingy lately. Dun ask me why. Lol. Special shoutout to Izah...hehe tiz song is oso dedicated to you coz both of us like tiz song so much...enjoy :p )
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Thursday,1 June 2006
June Is A Month Of.....
1) School Holidays2) The Great Singapore Sale!!
3) World Cup!!!! World Cup!!!! World Cup!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Weeeee!!!! (I'm so mostly very excited for this!!!)
4) So Manyyyyyyy June B'day Babies!!!!!!!!!!!!
5) Nasi Minyak (so many pple getting married,engaged etc etc...)
6) Father's Day....sigh...sob..sob...I miss u Papa & gonna miss all the "kacang" eating sessions we had, while watching soccer matches with you :(
7) The Increase of MCs....blame it on the World Cup fever...
8) The MOST happening thing on tv now would be World Cup coverage..
9) Last but not least...all of the above have sumthing in common...June is a month when most people go BROKE!!!!! (*sheepish smile*)
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Monday,29 May 2006
Selamat Pengantin Baru.....
Yesterday i'd witnessed the wedding ceremony of my gd fren,god-sis and my poly classmate from TP, Nadia. The wedding lunch reception was held at Nadia's void deck of blk 448 pasir ris dr.6 .The atmosphere was very joyous and colourful with the main theme wedding decor were decorated in my favourite colours red, as well as white. The guests were entertained with the emceeing of the famous DJ from Ria 89.7F.M, Mr A.B Shaik.And ouhh yes...the guests were entertained with the sounds of the latest Hindi songs by the DJ as well as interactive sessions with the guests whom had attended Nadia's wedding. I was not spared too as well from the very beginning i'd attended Nadia's wedding till the end. Yes..the DJ had targeted on me since I was seated nearby.Singing,dancing,judging...u name it..Lolz..ok i won't go into further details describing wat i had done..heeee...very PAISEH. Here are some photos of the bride and groom which i've managed to snap...
The Stunning Couple Nadia & Ridhuan
The Beautifully Decorated & "Yummy"licious 3-tier Wedding Cake
Cake Cutting Ceremony by the bride & groom...& the DJ kept on teasing them...
To Nadia Ariff & Muhammmad Ridhuan Jamil...congratulations on your wedding!!!!
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Friday,26 May 2006
Tick Tock...Tick Tock...Tick Tock....
Here i go again......my insomnia's hitting me back....time check for the 12th time....what time is it?Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!I dun feel good.Di go to sleep...Di go to sleep....Di go to sleep!!!!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday,24 May 2006
Latest Pics "Si Mummy Buyung" the Preggie....
My "New" Look...and so it was over, the days of my "nong nong" hair...
I was comtemplating at first on whether if i should put up my latest pics of myself, almost 5 months pregnant now....of course i can't be bothered to get a full picture of my "fat" self on my digicam.
I have many pple asking me how do i look like now and how big does my tummy appear now. Anyway after much persuasion from Nura babe, i've finally decided...yes finally decided to put up only 2 pictures to satisfy the curiosity. So Nura, if you're reading tiz entry,tiz one is especially dedicated to you....(hmm agak2 apa ramalan cucu nenek bidan kita ni iyer?so boy ke girl ni ko agak?hehehe..tataplah ko puas2 pic perut aku yg buncit ni)
Presenting....the "Mummy Buyung"...gee i looked so "stoinked" in tiz pic,my early morning face w/out any make-up on & duhh sore eyes...
Tadaa!!! Hehehe...A bit Censored yah, anyway peeps tis is how my tummy looks like...for now.Hmm comments anyone??
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Tuesday,23 May 2006
Anxiety Killer...
Woke up earlier this morning with a slight headache and redness in both eyes.GREAT.Looks like i've already fully developed sore eyes, and those eye lubricants which i have been using for the past 2 days proved useless. My eyeballs felt as though they're "sticking out" even more, and i could feel my eye muscles "tightening" and "squeezing" whenever i let my face downwards, especially when i'm doing my prayers.Anyway, if you people might have already known, yesterday morning i had my trip down to the hospital for my gynae medical check-up and the scan to determine the sex of my baby. Well it seems that i wasn't the only one whom was very excited. I'd received so many smses from my friends whom were just as anxious as me, especially Rai, the 1st person to flood my handphone inbox yesterday morning.
The nurse had assisted me to do the other routine check-up procedures as well and then the wait for about an hour before i'd finally met my gynaecologist, Dr Marianne Hendricks. We had some discussions on my medical conditions as well as the progress of the baby's growth development. After that long discussion, much to my disappointment, my gynaecologist then decided that she couldn't do the full scan as yet on my baby and so she had to arrange another date for me to come back to the hospital on the 9th of June. Haizzz....well i don't have any other choices but to just wait till my next appointment date to know the results.
Anyway I've already make it clear that i won't be announcing the baby scan results as yet on whether if my baby's gonna be a boy or a girl. I will keep it as a secret from you guys till the day my baby is born (",) . Insya-Allah. Till then happy guessing and happy name giving suggestions ("p).
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Friday,19 May 2006
You would think by now, I would know my way around,
I shouldn't miss you so badly, I should be on familiar ground.
How many more lonely years, must meander by,
until I learn the lesson, it does no good to cry.
What manner of iron will, must some people possess,
to be always looking forward, to never accept regress.
Perhaps if I was willing, to let someone take me by the hand,
they could show me a happy place, in this unfamiliar land.
Perhaps I'm only homesick, for all the joys that once were mine,
I must accept that they and you, belong to another place and time.
But I know that deep within my heart, there's a place where only you reside,
and when the pain of loneliness comes, it knows that is where I hide.
So if sometimes it seems to you, I'm clinging to the past,
it's mostly because I can't yet accept, that our love didn't last.
No matter how hard I try, I've yet to get over you,
for the part of me that's still alive, believes you love me too.
Maybe there will come a day, when that part will finally die,
and feeling strong with a heart reborn, a new love I will finally try.
And what a splendid day that will be, when I awaken to discover,
I'm happily learning a great new land, with a great new friend and lover.
Di's note : About the poem....Even normal day to day things become alien when you are lost inside yourself. The struggles to regain a sense of ourselves when we have long been part of another person is a test of our ability to navigate in a strange new world.
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Thursday,18 May 2006
Her Misfortune...
It's been already 24 hours since my granny had that unfortunate fall while she was having her shower in the bathroom yesterday.Granny slipped and fell lying flat on her bums.Thank God i happened to be there when the accident happened.I was engrossed with my work on the pc when i heard the dreadful "thud" noise of what it seemed to be a large pail of water fallen of the edge.At that very instant too, a sudden rush of cold blood swept over me and the next thing i knew, i ran to the kitchen bathroom and called out for my granny frantically. No response. I panicked. I yelled out for my mum whom was engrossed chatting with my aunt on the phone. Lucky thing my granny didn't lock the bathroom door. We found her on the floor crouching in pain.No signs of blood and I, still feeling panicked kept asking her if she had knocked her head against anything and kept asking her how was she feeling. My mum was kinda taken aback by the accident and she suddenly became dumbfounded.I found myself repeating to my granny over and over again if she could move her limbs and if she was in deep pain. She replied a simple "NO" and then held on to my mum to help her to get up back again on her legs. "NO!!" i blurted out instantaneously, but my granny was very stubborn and before i knew it she "forced" herself out of the bathroom and walked towards her bathroom. Obviously my mum and i couldn't do anything to hinder what she was doing. The only thought in my mind was to send my granny to the hospital immediately but she was very reluctant, giving all sorts of excuses. She wanted to go back to her room and scolded me and my mum that she just wanted to have her rest then.It was until late evening when i couldn't hold on any longer to my worries and instructed my mum to persuade my granny and for my mum to call for the private ambulance to send her to TTSH immediately.Gee...Masya-Allah, my granny was verryyyyyy stubborn.She still didn't want to go to the hospital.She kinda got on to my nerves actually, haiz i'd really "istighfar" a lot to deal with her behaviour like that. My 2 other aunties came over to our place and did the same thing in trying to persuade my granny to go to the hospital. By the time the ambulance came it was already 8.10p.m. My mum and my aunts finally accompanied my granny to the hospital while i stayed home and help to look after my siblings. Last night I couldn't even sleep at all. I was feeling kinda uneasy. My hips kinda felt hurt and i felt all the aching. My tummy too felt kinda uneasy. Maybe it was due to the running when i'd rushed to the bathroom to get my granny. Last night i couldn't even get myself to rest on bed properly.Couldn't even sleep till it was at 2a.m when the tv was showing the finals of the Champions League between Barcelona FC and Arsenal.I'd stayed awake watching the match, and it was only around 3.15a.m when my mum got back home.
My mum had spent 2 solid hours to persuade my granny to go for the x-ray.Granny created quite a scene as she tried to scape free, when the doctors and nurses wheeled her to go for the xray scanning.She didn't even want to get herself admitted into the ward.I couldn't help myself to think of that scenario when my mum related to me what happened at the hospital.Of course, i felt really pity for her.Trust me by experience, its really miserable once you're being warded at the hospital.But then again, i didn't want to burden my mind thinking what injuries could my granny had actually sustained.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Just one after another.Sigh.My hips are still aching in pain....God.Hopefully my granny's still alright.Just hold on.......
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Wednesday,17 May 2006
Oh What Will It Be?
Still feeling kinda tired from yesterday's de-stressing chilling out session at Bugis Junction's Coffee Bean.Lucky thing i wasn't craving for my usual cuppa hazelnut latte from Starbucks.Hmm but instead tiz certain someone arr, was craving for the "american cheesecake"....(hai lain org yg "preggie" lain org lak yg mengidam,mcm2 hal).The "after" effects of caffeine in the coffee consumption was great on her.Well drinking "hot chocolate" last night was already enough for me to turn cranky & still was after i'd reached home. After my showers, went online into MSN and found the usual peeps.Didn't really know, what was I actually doing last night online.Managed to chat up with Nura,Azhari,Boris,Yan & Kamal for a while..(pardon me all,if i was kinda stoned and crappy last nite while chatting..trust me its all because of tat simply sinful chocolate drink & tat spicy "kerepek" i'd taken last nite.)I didn't even last long in MSN.Complained to my last 2 chatters I was feeling uneasy with last night's humid atmosphere.I was sweating again in less than an hour after my shower.Gosh...i couldn't stand it any longer and so for the next over 45 minutes,the time was spent soaking my restless body in water & showering foam.Ahhh...Heaven...Woke up very early as usual tiz morning. 7.30a.m, breakfast as usual.An egg prata together with my daily intake, a tall mug of hot milk.Received the 1st call of the day on my hp,7.52a.m from Nura.Lolz 1st time i'd hear her "morning voice".Excitedly over the phone,she exclaimed to me that "Peterpan" will be coming over to Singapore to perform at Hard Rock Cafe.Ouh wow great,they will be coming nxt mth.Nura also told me about the available ticketings priced at $90 and $150.(*ting ting* ting* money icon flashes in my mind ;p).Ouh great...they will be performing during the hot brewing of the World Cup Fever...k gal keep me updated later with more information aite.
Called up the hospital's appointment services hotline to confirm on my next scheduled doctor's visit.It will be next Monday 22nd May at 11.15a.m with Dr Marianne Hendricks.More tests to be done...which meant more "poking" sessions for me :( and yeah as well as an ultrasound scan again for updates on the development of my baby (hopefully by now,they're able to distinguish the sex of my baby).My worries started to come back...nervous everytime the word "hospital" is being mentioned to me and excited to be able to find out the sex of my baby. Well folks,stay tune to this space for more updates on yours truly.
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Monday,15 May 2006
A Friendster in Need...is a Desperado indeed
I like you, you like him, he likes her, maybe we both know her?Welcome to the world of social networking sites - Friendster,MySpace and so on, otherwise known as the ultimate time-waster for Generation Young. For the uninitiated, these sites allow you to create a profile, display photos and videos, link to other people's profiles and see how everyone is connected. But it's funny how users have twisted these sites and turned them into a new arena with its own etiquette and code of conduct.
It's like the online version of secondary school, where one can feel socially inadequate when their profile is not so cool as others, when they don't seem to have hip and happening testimonials, or the number of friends they're linked to is low. I was talking to a friend who was complaining about a former friend. She said: "Can you believe she deleted me from Friendster? That's so rude!" and proceeded to complain for the next 10 minutes about how this is one of the meanest things you could do to someone. Forget the fact that she didn't actually like the person anymore.
I also know of a relationship where the girl would monitor her boyfriend's profile for changes. If he added a new woman friend, she'd grill him about how they met. She would also check all his friends' pages to see if he had written a testimonial for them. Lord help him if he wrote something nice for another girl. These profiles also allow you to clearly state whether you're a single, in a relationship, married or (my favourite) "it's complicated". If you ever get the chance to witness a new couple talking about what to set their Friendster status to, prepare to listen to an incredibly stupid conversation. At times, it seems like they're forcing themselves to figure out whether or not they're in a relationship just because they want to get their Friendster status clear.
As with everything in life, people have corrupted Friendster and turned it into a race- a race for more friends, more testimonials and more photos. A browse through profiles shows people with more than 500 friends. FIVE HUNDRED. Their definition of a friend must be simply someone whom they have "shared air with". There's also the "you scratch my back and I scratch yours" syndrome when it comes to testimonials. A friend writes you a testimonial and if you don't write one back, it's akin to taking a drink a friend brought you and pouring it on the ground in front of him.
Most hilarious is the vanity that is brought out by Friendster. Some folks have the maximum amount- 50 pictures, all of themselves (and if it's an attractive girl, she always manages to include a few bikini shots). In our quest for validation from others, people eagerly write testimonials like "Thanks for picking me, us beautiful people rock!"
Not to shatter anyone's reality, but those sending out invites are not modelling agencies or judges for the next Miss Singapore Universe - they're just 14-year-old pimply boys waiting to befriend pretty girls. The Internet is a platform which brings together the world, enables incredible scenarios to take place and has our collective knowledge embedded within it. But what does it end up producing? Friendster.
(Di's note: The above entry is actually from an article which I came across while reading Sunday's edition of The New Paper yesterday morning.It was written by one of my favourite columnists, Howard Lo. His article amused me as I'd read it on my bed,yet with my pyjamas still on & instantly burst out giggling, my 1st cracked laughter for the day.
Yeah... with so many social networking sites - Friendster,MySpace,Hi5,Zorpia,WAYN,Multiply,Nightlife.sg...bla bla bla...god knows who came up with all these sites,it does somehow brings an impact to an individual who owns accounts with these sites. Ok...Ok...among one of those people is YOURS TRULY, me. I have to admit that I can't pass a single day without checking my Friendster account. That explains why my "Last Login" status is always highlighted as 24 hours.Lol. Hey don't just blame me,those people would rather send a message through Friendster rather than through my e-mail accounts, which meant double work for me to clear both inboxes from my Friendster inbox as well as my e-mail accounts with bulk mail headers entitled "New Friendster Message from XXX" - 05/15/2006 06.45AM".
I strongly agree with the writer's part on "the girl would monitor her boyfriend's profile for changes".
Just admit it, I sometimes have this "kepo" auntie syndrome, browsing all my other friends' profiles to somehow "catch up" on latest updates of themselves, particularly through photos and of course their status alerts. And so...how great does Friendster has affected...YOUR LIFE???? (",)
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Saturday,13 May 2006
Hmmm....Updates??
Finally managed to have a chat with Nura online MSN last nite.It's been quite sumtime since we both had a good chat.Been complaining to me that she's been lazy and tired to give updates on her blog.Well i kinda understand her,she's a family person with 2 adorable active kids and of course her hubby besides other matters which are more important to take care of and be given the top priority.Well yesterday, I've got the chance to ask her some questions pertaining to after child birth and of course the adorable topics on babies. Being a mum wannabe,there will be of course hundreds of questions roaming in my brain. Yes peeps....I AM GETTING VERY NERVOUS as day goes by.I just hope that everything will run out smoothly, Insya-Allah. Pray for me guys...
Hmm well Miss Rai Hannah Banana...hehehe, just chatted with her moments ago.Guess she's busy now updating her "dusty" blog ;p.Too bad i'm unable to join u guys to go shopping at J.B today.Well anyway hope u guys have fun shopping and to Zam...pls take care for me, the other 3 ladies Rai,Ain & Eda along the journey and please behave yourself.Be a nice gentleman ("p).Rai don't forget to send my regards to "Jusco"...I'll be back one fine day....
Well peeps tomorrow's officially Mother's Day, i wonder what will the rest of you be planning, to grace this significant occasion for the most important person in your life? (",)
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Friday,12 May 2006
The Gift
I wonder if you ever dream
About me and the world unrevealed
I wonder if you ever smiled
Whenever I talk to you from the outside
I feel butterflies within
Is that you that I am feeling?
I feel happy when you do that ...
Now let's see, what else do you have?
Every night I want to dream of you
Hold your face and kiss you
Feel your soft skin and smell it
Give you a hug and tickle your feet
That is real enough for me
To see you in my dreams and hold you tenderly
However, I still can't wait to see...
My precious little gift .. my baby.
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Monday,8 May 2006
Biarlah Rahsia....
Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketikaberada di tempat ku
membayangkan pahit manis
berlaku tiada siapa yang tahu
mungkin nanti kau jua merasakan
berdepan dengan kata menyesatkan
tak kan ku melupakan
tiada pertimbangan
keheningan malam membalutkan
kepayahan jiwa meluahkan
andai kau jujur memahami
tiadaku menjauhi
dan kisahku yang masih panjang
menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantasku pendam ku putuskan
biarlah rahsia
semakin aku hitung dalam cinta
tiada kuasa mampu menghalangnya
hentikan kata-kata bertulangkan dusta
keheningan malam membalutkan
kepayahan jiwa meluahkan
andai kau jujur memahami
tiada ku menjauhi
dan kisahku yang masih panjang
menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantas ku pendam ku putuskan
biarlah rahsia
dan kisah ku yang masih panjang
menambahkan berat yang memandang
lantas ku pendam ku putuskan
biarlah rahsia
Lyrics : Siti Nurhaliza
Song : Melly Goeslaw
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Monday,8 May 2006
Tiny One
How very often I have dreamed
A world of perfect bliss
To be the mother of a boy
Or of a tiny miss.
To hold its tiny hands in mine
To count its tiny toes
And then to place a tiny kiss
Upon its tiny nose.
To hold it very close to me
Warm against my breast
To gaze into its tiny face
Sleeping and at rest.
Oh, what could be more perfect
Or what could hold more bliss,
Than to be a mother of a boy
Or of a tiny miss.
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Sunday,7 May 2006
Just Be Patient
Never thought it would be so tough growing upSometimes, I just want to give up
But there is always a little voice,
Inside of me to cheer me up
I guess life ought to have
Tough times
But eventually hard times will bring you
Happy times
It just depends on how you look at it
Things tend to happen for a reason,
Which is hard to see at first time
You won't see it unless you go seek
Sometimes it takes time to see it,
But most of time all it takes patience
Be patient, and tough times will pass
Rainbows are hard to be seen,
Unless it stormed recently.
Everything will be sunny soon.
Just be patient
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Friday,5 May 2006
It's Been Donkey Months...I'm So Wanna Go Watch Movies!!!! :(
Been blog-hopping and its interesting to see how others spent their quality de-stressing time by having a pampering trip, a short getaway to a neighbouring country.There are others too whom had simply enjoyed having "mini vacations" right here in Singapore, with some going to the zoo,bird park,snow city and our small offsetted lil island Sentosa.Ouh great...and what have i been doing all this while? I'm stuck into boredom with no interesting plans yet alone to go on another long holiday.Sheesh.
Right now, if you were to ask me one thing i would like to do instantly,i would say "I'm Soooo Wanna Go Watch Movies!!!!!"
Since earlier of this year, i've not been to the cinemas as yet. The last time being last year itself, on a date, bout a month before my wedding .I still keep tat pair of cinema tix with me.Haizz...pathetic right????? :( :(
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Tuesday,2 May 2006
The Book of Sumptious Cooking for Dummies ("p)
I gave up in my patient wait for the reply of that gal whom had wanted to
ask me something, as i'd mentioned in my previous entry. My instinct was right
after all that she didn't have the guts to ask me directly in what i've thought
to be something sensitive....perhaps. No reply as yet from her and so i've
decided...be it then, i don't even wanna bother asking her wat was it tat
she'd wanted to ask.
Anyway earlier at noon today, i'd received an sms from my collegue, much to
my amusement. Ahaks..she'd requested for my "special" recipe (this was what
she'd claimed), as she will be going overseas for her further studies (ni
kes nak survive sendiri lah ni,masak sendiri...budget katakan...lol). Hmm...alright
then and i'd thought that perhaps she had wanted to ask me about the "ayam
masak merah" dish, mee soto or perhaps maybe something more elaborate like the "nasi
briyani". I'd called her instantly, very well-prepared to be of my full service.
"Helooo XXX...hey it's me Di.Got ur msg earlier on. Recipe ape ni yg ko nak?"
"Di!!!!! You're my saviour lah gal!!!" (*her "mentel" chuckles followed on*)
Di...(*giggled*)
"Iyer saya kak....ade apa2 yg boleh "chef" bantu?" i added. (*giggled agn*)
"Tak banyaklah Di,cuma nak mintak tolong ko jek,kasi recipe special ko tuh so aku leh compile nanti jadi mini recipe book aku," XXX replied.
"Aarrr alkisahnya...bolehhhh...apa salahnya...ko nak apa pon bleh lauk ayam masak merah...lauk2 daging...ikan...western...eastern...insya-Allah walau tak seberapa sedap pada ko tapi mungkin cukup2 mkn jek", i continued.
"Eh tebiat pe ko nak kasi aku recipe2 mcm gitu...(*lol*) tonggang terbalik nanti dapur aku buat"...(*lol* agn)
"Bistu recipe ape ni ko nak?Bilang lah aku straight to the point, kalau iyer pon," i then waited...silence.
"Ouhh alah benda alah tuh yg ko pernah buat lepas tuh ko bwk gi keje dulu kasi the other collegues jamah2 skit...yg ade udang potong2...bis ade daun bawang eh..cicah cili sos..cokodok udang arr!!!" XXX explained excitedly.
"Hahahahahahaha.....hahahahaha......."(*lol*) Di laughed hysterically ;p.
I'd named my fren "XXX" in the above conversation to protect her identity and her "paisehness" of not knowing to cook something which i'd thought at 1st tat she wanna asked for a very "leceh" recipe of a dish.Lerrr rupa2nya ko nak recipe cokodok roti udang aku..hahaha.Lolz....Sorry arr beb ketawakan ko tadi lepak2,aku sendiri tak leh angkat dgn cara ko describe tuh betol peh sungguh2 dgn semangat...last2 ko mintak aku recipe cokodok jek.Hahaha.Gasak ko lah beb,asalkan ko bahgia.
K, demi menunaikan permintaan ko..ini dier recipe "cokodok roti udang" aku yg ko ckp "special" tuh...for the rest of my blog viewers,pls bear with my blog entry tiz time...dah bertukar pulak mcm kelas memasak eh...lol..niwei XXX hope u like it.Enjoy.......
COKODOK "ROTI" UDANG (in English i'd assumed as Breaded Mini Shrimp Fritters?haha gasaklah aper nama pon kan..yg penting ngap masuk mulut,kenyang ;p)
INGREDIENTS
1 loaf of Gardenia sliced "white bread"
1 bijik bawang merah (dihiris halus)
1 batang lada merah (dihiris halus jugak...arr ni ikut arr nak pedas tambahlah korang cili)
Daun sop 20 sen (optional)
2 biji telor
50g fresh udang (suka hati jugak nak lebih boleh lebih...pls clean thoroughly and then halved it)
abt 1 glass of hot water
garam & ajinomoto secukup rasa
oil for frying
Now let's move on to the step by step process of cooking it....
1) Firstly, we'll need to do something kinda "tedious"...which is to "tear" the bread slices into more smaller portions. After which we will pour the glass of hot water into our pot of sliced bread of smaller portions.Pour the hot water slowly bit by bit,observing tat the bread won't get soaked up too much. The reason why hot water is to re"activate" the yeast in the bread,so tat it'll be more "light" tasty and oso crispy when cooked.
2) Next we'll use our hands (highly recommended ) to further ensure that the mixture of hot water distibutes evenly and also to further "breakdown" of the bread slices into more smaller pieces.
3) Next we'll put in the eggs, each at a time and to continously ensure that they're evenly distributed and hand-mixed well.Next add in the rest of the other ingredients...sliced onions,sliced chillies,the daun sop altogether.Mix well again.
4) Heat the oil in your frying pan. The cokodoks are to be "deep-fried". Ensure that the oil in the frying pan is really hot.
5) Use your hands or a bigger spoon to fry the tiny portions of the cokodok.Add the prawn onto the spoon,levelled it or by using your hands,mixed the prawn into the small portion of the cokodok mixture before it lands itself into the frying pan.
6) Fry the cokodoks till golden brown and crispy
7) Served with chilli sauce,mayonaise or any of your fav. sauces
Last but not least....these "cokodoks" are best served when still hot....hehehe...and so to you guys whom wanna try out tiz recipe..haha...enjoy...hope u'll like it.... ("p)
(Caution: Chef Di is solely not responsible should there be any "side-effects" or adverse. Try it at your own discretion.Hahahaha.....LOL...
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Thursday,27 April 2006
Another Restless Day...
Got a phone call from my MIL yesterday evening telling me that my FIL had involved in a motorbike accident on his way to work.Thankfully, it was nothing serious though. The culprit, well perhaps in my own context, I would define it as the "notorious" vehicle to look out for on our Singapore roads, those cars running on diesel...the taxis. I didn't really know how exactly did the accident happened, but my MIL told me that the taxi driver had "beaten" the red light, and as a result my FIL became an innocent victim.Anyway that incident has already been taken into the Traffic Police consideration for them to further investigate the matter.Had a long chat with Hakim late last nite.It's been quite sometimes since i'd last heard frm our policeboy here.He was in distress indeed.Had spent my "resting" time teaching our boy here to upload a video up onto his blog.And ouhh boy,didn't i'd realized its gonna be a tedious tutorial for him.Lol.He couldn't quite understand what i had been trying to instruct him to do in making the ammendments.Haizz tiz boy arr,my very first encounter "tutoring" someone on blogging for taking a very long..long time to understand!!Sorry Hak,not did i wanna demoralised you,but hey it's really fact!!
In the end our policeboy here gave up,trusted me to go into his blogger account and help him do the ammendments..only that later in the end he'd decided to just stick back to his old template?!!!! Arghh!!!
(*quoted off Hak's blog..."The minute I realised how complicated it was going to be writing posts in future with the new template, I aborted. So yes it was a waste of Mar's time. Im sure I would have been murdered had it been Ain's.. So sorry Mar. I thank you for your patience of answering all my idiotic 'duh' questions. For a few other helpful explanations, I salute you.. Alright I think that's enough.)Lolz...yes Hak you should really thank me for my great deal of patience with you ("p).
I'm still feeling restless as I'm typing out this entry.It seems that the feeling grows by the day.My doc just explained that i'm experiencing "anaemia".If it gets worst, blood transfusion is the answer.Just hope that i will still have the energy to move on each day.
Hmm just moments ago,received several smses frm the gal i'd mentioned about in my previous entry asking me how am i doing.Gave her my reply as usual.Then came another msg from her..."Ic.Take care of yourself k beb.Btw aku nak tanya ko sikit..."
Its already been an hour since that last msg and i was left questioning myself what exactly did she wanna ask me...ouh well, for now I'll just wait patiently....Again......
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Tuesday,25 April 2006
Been Away For A Long Time & Rumours....
Guess I've been away from blogging for quite sometime except for the previous entries of my poetries which some of you people went asking.."Hey Di,wassup with the "mendak" mood...and aiyah "why so emo.....?" Do I have to repeat over and over again? Attention pple!!! This is my own space. I have the freedom to type whatever I wish to type.Be it sharing my thoughts...my ideas and inspirations and even as my space for gossipping.FULL STOP.If you're not interested to read whatever's in my blog,pls feel free to hover your mouse over to the very top right hand corner of your computer screen and click on that "X".Anyway first of all i wanna thank all my friends wherever you are, for all of your constant and never-ending support & well wishes.Thank you from the bottom of my heart :) Anyway just wanna take this opportunity also, to welcome back my hot drama mama Nura, back to SG.Babe, how was Vietnam?Sure you had lotsa fun over there, and yeah i miss you too lah!!!So babe, aper lagi PICS!PICS!PICS! Gi letak arr pat "goblog" ko hehe..yup insya-Allah we'll meet up sometime again yah.
I'd received a "mild" shock today when a gd friend of mine sent me an mms of herself pictured together with her "new" boyfriend..ouh well her "new" bf happened to be my gd ol' ex-collegue way back when i was doing my sales job for an electrical company. The 3 of us used to work as a team together.This guy is way older as he's in his 30's & i've regarded him as my elder brother and that i've treated him with much respect.As far as i've known tiz guy was engaged to somebody else tat time.Even my gd fren the gal was aware.Likewise the same goes for tat older guy fren of mine, whom was also aware of my gd fren's status. So..the rumours which had sparked off lately of my gd fren tiz gal was true afterall.The guy broke off his engagement and then dated my gd fren, whom was still attached to her ex-bf then.
And well i just can't believe myself that my gd fren, tiz gal left her bf of 6 years....yes 6 yrs i repeat, for this older guy fren of mine.Haizz now come to the pitiful part,the gal's ex-bf is also another gd fren of mine. We were from the same poly as well and had known each other for a very long time.It was me,back them whom later introduced him to my gd fren the gal.Their relationship went a step ahead than just normal friends into a special relationship. Her ex-bf had actually confided in me about his relationship problems.I'd listened to him pouring out his disappointment, with my gd fren.He told me that my gd fren had changed a lot since she'd changed job to work at the airport.Discreetly,she was dating her new guy collegues whom she had known at her new workplace.He even complained of her drastic changing appearance and attitude as well.I've also known that the other older fren of mine tat guy also happened to land a job for himself at the airport as well.What's worst, her ex-bf had also informed me abt exactly the guy she went out with, without his acknowledge.Tat guy...ouh well initially unknown to me whom exactly till it struck me that her ex-bf was actually referring to my ex-collegue.
Haizz of course as usual,there's really nothing much I could do about it.Her ex-bf even confided in me that sure I couldn't help much to "save" his relationship with my gd fren but then again he sought my help to advise my gd friend from becoming more and more astray.He knew that I could be the only one person whom could guide his ex-gf back properly.Its no easy task of course when people are placing high hopes on you and regard you as being a saviour.Sigh.Ironic isn't it, that sometimes we can't even tackle the root of our own problems and gd advices for ourselves and yet people are still approaching you asking for our best advices? Get it? *sighs and ponders*......
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Monday,24 April 2006
Tonight
I'll hold back my tears tonight
As I know I can't have you with me
I'll try to sleep tonight
But what's the point?
When I wake up nothing will have changed.
I'll be sad tonight
And probably tomorrow too
I'll put on an act though
To try to keep a straight face around you
I know you won't really sense my pain
I'll think of you tonight
It's so hard to not cry
Heartbreak feels so low
I'll try to forget my sorrow
As I know you won't really think of me
I'll see the stars tonight
And watch them twinkle in the charcoal sky
If the universe is infinite
Then I'll look for a parallel world
Where you and me are together
And I'll just wish I was there.
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Friday,21 April 2006
Life is For Living...Live It...
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much, you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real.When the door of happiness closes, another opens.
But often, we look so long at the closed door, we don't see the one which has been opened to us.
Don't go for looks, they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth, it can fade away.
Go for someone who makes you smile because a smile can make a dark day bright.
Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go.
Be who you want to be because you have only one life and one chance to do the things you want to do.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past.
You can't go forward until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
Live your live so that at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
Don't count the years - count the memories.
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away!!
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Wednesday,12 April 2006
My days are filled with anguish and pain.
My nights are engulfed with an endless strain.
Through the day I search for a way to end the feeling of emptiness in my life.
But then night comes and reality cuts me sharp like a knife.
For it is at night I realize I have accomplished little in my years.
This is when my eyes begin to fill with tears.
Although I know tomorrow will bring rays of sunshine to a few.
For me it will bring another day
Filled with raindrops and dew.
I do have hope for my future to
Have joyous days.
But this will take time, patience,
And walking through a somewhat endless maze.
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Monday,10 April 2006
Joga Bonito...This is His Joy..
My darling lil bro,Shafiq's very much favourite soccer player.He's so much of awe for this soccer player, his biggest Idol...that's the man Ronaldinho..Enjoy...(p.s- if you think that bearded commentator looks familiar..well that's my infamous "notorious kung-fu kiss ass player" Mr Eric Cantona :p))
Monday,10 April 2006
Silence...
Nothing moves.
No spark of life
or heart, or love
It's not the pain of living
because there is no life
without you
Without you to hold me
I am cold.
Without you to love me
I am lifeless.
I stare at your picture
but all I get
is memories.
What has, could, would have been
but never will
Shattered heart's tales scream silently at me
The rain dripping down my face,
a cool reminder of real life.
And the sky goes black
and I am scared
but where are you?
where are you?
the tears run away from me
I can't catch them
I hope for your voice,
gentle to my ears,
to bring me back.
but nothing.
just silence.
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Monday,10 April 2006
Project Pinkified "Bunny" Superstar...The Reveal
This was so much of a very overdue blog entry...It should be published on my blog like bout 3 weeks ago..Anyway you guys would wanna recapped my several few last entries..yes,the one on the "Project Pinkified Superstar"? Well only this time a "bunny" has been added to it. Before you'll ask me why..to Noi, sorry babe that I'll have to kick aside your posh & glamourous poses for awhile and let us for now enjoy the looks of our "Miss Pinkified Bunny Superstar" !!
This was of course not a scene from the "April Fool's" celebration,but instead the Squad Team had organized a belated b'day celebration for our most 1) very "spotted" person 2) very an"noi"ying person 3) very "revolutionized" hair-styled person 4) very glued "sesame seed" on the nose 5) very estactic "dancing queen" and finally 6) very "imaginary" canned-food stealer.
Lolz,if you all must know,those were the "weird" but very true awards we've presented to our b'day girl our Miss Pinkified "Bunny" Superstar. How do we came up with those awards?Well there's a story behind each of those awards we've given to her.I was honoured to present her with award no.3,for the most very "revolutionized" hair styled person.Recalling those days back during our sec sch days..the "sotong" hairstyle,the F.L.E.X hairstyle..and the rest was history. I have to agree with Rai that most of us had to set aside our "discrimation" & egoism for Noi's fav colour(yes...it's PINK alright) and be lovable darlings for a day by donning clothes in her fav colours just for the b'day girl.Now isn't that sweet?
We'd even recorded our very own personalized b'day wishes into a video as well as a "down the memory lane" Powerpoint slide presentation showcasing our superstar for the day, Noi from the days of a lil baldy girl to what a "pinkified" superstar she is now...(thanks to noi's sis nana, for co-operating with us to "steal" some of Noi's candid childhood pics to be put up in the Powerpoint slides).
To our dearest "Pinkified" Superstar Noi..hope you had the time of your life and enjoyed the b'day celebration we'd held for you. To the other 5 "Squammie Planners" thumbs up!! We've all done a pretty great job!!
Once again wishing our dearest Noi a very happy belated 24th b'day (",)
The 6 "nutty" planners
Us..Againnn...but hey where's Imp?!
Our B'day Gal with her 24th B'day Cake...
Fuhhhhh!!!
Cake Cutting...
Let's Eat Cake!!!Sinful & Chocolicious!!Yummy!!!
All High on Chocolate!!Muahahaha!!!
One last kiss...Gd nite B'day Gal!!
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Saturday,8 April 2006
DIA
Okie I've accepted Salehin's challenge to create a poetry in Malay and he also had the honour to think of just the title for this poetry.I was supposed to create a poetry bout myself but then i think again, this poetry suits more for the character of "Ivan" in the indonesian sinetron "DIA".
Well here's my poetry.Pardon me if the poetry doesn't look up to that standard of Masuri S.N.To my critic Salehin,it's all yours.This was my best shot in creating one poetry in Malay. Kinda didn't have the mood today and that i'm feeling sick to have my brain juices worked up to a full 100%.Sorry bro...k here it goes...
Di sini aku termenung
Mencongak kerlipan bintang berjuta
Sambil mengingatkan dirimu di sana
Aku tidak tahu mengapa
Naluri jiwaku menjadi gundah mengingatkan dia.
Aku hanyalah insan biasa
Yang hanya mampu berkata sedikit
Untuk si dia
Tetapi aku juga masih mampu teguh berdiri
Demi membahagiakan dia
Namun aku tidak mengerti mengapa
Disaat aku teguh berdiri
Ada saja yang menghalang
Di depan mata ini
Aku sayang terhadapnya
Dan aku takut kehilangan dirinya
Biarpun terhalang onak berduri setebal mana pun
Cinta ini tetap tegar menghadapi semua
Kerana cintaku terhadap si dia hanyalah satu, kini dan selamanya
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Friday,7 April 2006
Untitled Poem
It's over. He's gone.
Why do we have to part while
the love is still there?
Why do we have to suffer?
Why do we have to cry when
somebody bids goodbye?
Why do beginnings have an end?
Why do we have to meet
only to lose in the end?
There are questions left unanswered,
words left unsaid, letters left unread,
poems left undone, songs left unsung,
love left unexpressed,
promises left unfulfilled.
In a relationship,
one of the hardest things to do
is saying goodbye and letting go.
It is as hard as breaking a crystal
because you'll never know when you
will be able to pick up the pieces again.
More often than not, they who go,
feel not the pain of parting:
it is they who stay behind that suffer,
because they are left
with memories of a love
that was meant to be,
a love that was.
At the beginning and at the end
of a relationship,
we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone.
Unfair as it may seem,
but that's the way love goes.
That's the drama, the bittersweet
and the risk of falling in love.
After all, nothing is constant but change.
Everything will eventually come to its end
without us knowing when,
without us knowing how,
without us even knowing why.
And we must forget not because we have to
but because we have to.
In letting go, sorrows come
not as a single spy but in batallion.
It seems that everywhere you go,
everything you do,
every song you hear,
every turn of your head,
every move of your body,
every beat of your heart,
every blink of your eye and every breath
you take always reminds you of him.
It's like a stab of a knife,
a torture in the night.
Funny how the whole world
becomes depopulated
when only one person is missing.
Just imagine,
there are billion people on earth
and yet it seems you feel lonely
and empty without the other.
I don't know if it's worth calling an art,
but letting go entails
special skills sparkled
with a considerable space and time.
Time heals all wounds but it takes
a little push on our part.
Acceptance plays a part.
Not all love stories end with
"...and they live happily ever after."
Sometimes we have to part because of
circumstances beyond our control.
We have to suffer if it would
mean happiness for others.
We have to cry to
temporarily let go of the pains.
Every beginning has its end
like every dawn has its dusk.
It's something we can't control,
something we had to live up.
It's over.
He's gone. But life has to go on.
Goodbye doesn't always mean forever.
There will always be a place and time
where questions will be answered,
words will be spoken,
letters will be read,
poems will be recited in the night,
songs will be sung in harmony,
love will be expressed in solitude and
promises will be fulfilled.
Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.
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Thursday,6 April 2006
Did You Forget?
Who listened all those times, when you were feeling low?Who sat beside you in rough times and helped you where to go?
Who cried when you cried, and helped away the tears?
Who tried to stay next to you, and help you with your fears?
Did you forget, That I gave you my heart?
After you left, My whole world came apart.
Did you forget, all those nights we had?
And all those times you said you loved me, now it makes me sad.
Did you forget, when you called I was there?
I always helped, when you were in despare.
Well I remember all those times I made sure you were ok.
Cause if I get to see you smile once, it will be a better day.
You are now gone, but the memories still last.
It is hard to put the ones away with love, thats in the past.
But you can still call, I will still be there.
It will still be like before, I will always care.
And remember it wise, or you will regret.
Because I will always be there for you, or did you forget?
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Thursday,6 April 2006
Sucky Day...
Not much of what I could share at the moment now.Just feeling sucky today.I'd saw quite a number of people online today this morning.While at work,saw Salehin online and he was the only one whom had bothered to ask how was I doing today.Though I was not really in a good mood to chat,somehow it felt kinda relieved when someone just dropped by to say "Hi".I'm sure you'll know that kinda feeling right?Sigh.Had another unpleasant dream yet again yesterday.Salehin was nice enough in willing to know what the dream was all about, but then again he'd also advised me rather not to share if it's an unpleasant one.Noted big bro.
Received a phone call from Nura as well earlier on.She wanted to date me out for lunch.Gee..i'm really sorry babe that i couldn't make it today.Sigh.Week's been kinda hectic for me.Sucky :(
Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.....
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Sunday,2 April 2006
Star Struck....ouhhh Ari....Sentosa here I come!!!
I'm still star struck even as i'm typing out this entry..yeah the header above says it all.I've been up,close and personal with my fav "ganteng" Indon actor today at Plaza Sing...hehehe Ari Wibowo!!!!Gosh he's a really friendly chap up close and yah I must say I've fallen in love with his sweeeeettttt smileeeeee....awwwwwwwww....one really cool guy.The heavy rain didn't dampened my spirits to catch this actor up close.And yes!!! I'd even took some photos with him!!!! Haizz makin tak tido mlm lah ni aku asyik tgk jek gambar dier.hehehe..okie2 enuf of Mr Ari for now.
Yes!! I'm really looking forward for tomorrow as well. Hmm Monday...wats so special about Monday? Well finally, i'll be making a 2nd comeback to Shang Ri-La Rasa Sentosa for a photoshoot!! Jason has arranged everything for me from food,transport & entertainment..hehehe..it's really been quite a long time since I went to Sentosa to have fun,well although this time round its solely for work purposes.
There will be photoshoots at the Mt Faber Cable Car Station as well as some parts of the beaches at Siloso and Palawan at Sentosa. The rest of the afternoon and evening will be spent on Sentosa Island. There will be 3 wardrobe changes as informed by the stylist and photographer.
Guess that's it on my short updates for now...time for dinner!!!
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Saturday,1 April 2006
Mungkin Nanti...Ada Apa Dengan Mu...Tak Bisakah
Check out whose out in this month's Manja mag....Peter Pan!!!! Yippeee!!! Finally a group pic of them together.Hey it's difficult you know to get a photo of the complete band members. It's so hard to get them from the Internet!! I mean as in a decent proper band photo you know...hehehe...happy "banget" guek...hehe...
So to the fans of Peter Pan, don't forget to grab yourself with a copy of this month's Manja mag....{sentiasa manjaaaaa...hahaha}..
Ouh yes one last announcement...anybody going to see Ari Wibowo "live" at Plaza Singapura tomorrow afternoon? Hands Up!!!!!!!!!! ("p)
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Friday,31 March 2006
Lost Love? New Found Love? And NO...I Won't Leave You Guys, This I Promise You...
I was watching "Dimensi ke-4 earlier on Suria at 10p.m just now. This week's episode was about "Bunian". I'd watched that episode all my myself in my room.It was not as scary as I'd thought at first.More to say that it's got a sad storyline and that I'd sympathized with the fate of the young man.The episode relates about a very shy & sincere guy whom was truly in love with his fiance, whom they had been match-maked by their folks.One day this guy received a phone call from his fiance whom he had thought was overseas at that time, just so that his fiance is an air stewardess. Of course just like any other people whom are deeply in love, a call from their loved ones would of course definitely brightened up their day. He missed his fiance so much, and more over their wedding day would due in 2 weeks time and they'd finally decided to meet up.
However, that was their last day seeing each other. To the guy's devastation, his fiance announced that all this while she didn't love him and that she couldn't accept him to be her future husband and that she couldn't keep lying to herself,how she actually had no feelings for her fiance.The guy couldn't accept the fact that this was happening and even asked her for a second chance.All sad to say, his fiance had left him for another guy, her Caucasian boyfriend.
The poor guy lost his focus at work, his health deteriorated and spent his time aimlessly at the beach, often till the wee hours of the morning because of the break up. That was when he'd met a "bunian" girl whom had came up to him to fill up his heart's emptiness.A girl with a heart so pure and lovely that captured his heart.She brought the guy to her "other" world and there for once, the guy's sadness and disappointment of his ex-fiance just vanished.The "bunian" girl showered him with her most sincere sense of comfort,her love and her most ultimate care for the guy.
However their world's were far apart and of course it's simply impossible for them to be united together as lovers and living together in the same world.Once again sadly, the guy parted off with his short new-found lover the "bunian" girl.
Ok so much so for this week's Dimensi ke-4 episode. After watching that i had myself staring hard at my lappie's screen.I'd saw quite a number of my MSN contacts whom were online. I was fast growing bored,had my MP3 player blasting.And yeah guess what, I'd even came up with an unintentional poem after watching that episode.Lolz...Obviously I had nothing else better to do with my Microsoft Word.Lolz. Hmm what's the poem like? Well here it goes...
She is beautiful, so very beautiful
Just like a sunny shining landscape,
As delicate as the petals of a daisy,
And as freely as the eagle soaring against the blue
Her eyes are as mysterious as the calm sea
Everything about her is so very precious,
More precious than all the gems in the world
Her soul is the essence of the sky and earth,
Her feelings are a volcano that is yet to explode
Her smile is the smile of lost innocence.
Pain vibrates deep inside of her gentle heart.
A lock shuts in the disturbed thoughts of her mind,
A mind with as many roads as the world has.
I look at her and I see a pure truth,
Like looking at a clear night sky,
Millions of stars twinkle within her.
She is beauty as I defined it,
She is perfect, her imperfections make her so.
She is my best friend, and I love her,
I love her although, not because.
And I would give up all the things which I think are pretty
If only I can hold her beauty within me,
For she is everything in this world,
And I have found a world in her.
Well there goes my last minute ponder in the late night.Another masterpiece from me.Lol.Hmm I have yet to give this poem a title. Any suggestions?
Somehow when i read it over and over again, it does reminds me the feelings of someone. Ouh ya anyway to my abg Long Salehin...hehe do you think this poem relates you very well of someone very special to you? I'd just realised that too....Oopss hehe...
Ouh yeah chatted earlier, a while with Ain whom was busy doing her workplan. The sudden topic of "seperation". I am no longer in the singles club like the rest of my "Squammies".I do admit that sometimes I do feel kinda left-out, I dunno exactly why, but you know deep inside me is a scary thought that I'll be losing my best friends one day. I mean all of us are not getting any younger and as time goes we'll have families of our owns and that yeah certainly each of us are after our own dreams and aspirations as well as achieving our ambitions. I won't leave you guys my dearest "Squammies" and that I love you all dearly too much. This i promise you......
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Wednesday,29 March 2006
Project Pinkified Superstar 
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Friday,24 March 2006
Peter Pan!!! Ari Wibowo!!!
Congrats to one of my fav indon bands..Peter Pan for clinching the awards for Best Duo/Group and the Most Popular Duo/Band in the Anugerah Planet Muzik (APM)'06,which was broadcasted live from the Max Pavilion Singapore Expo this evening.To the lead singer of Peter Pan...Ariel...aku cinta banget sama suara kamu!!!Hehehe..I lurpe u Peter Pan!!!Weee!!! Okie I was hoping for the song "Cinta" performed by also 2 of my favourite female Indon artists Melly Goeslaw & Kris Dayanti to win the Best Song but they didn't.Hahaha and Mr Taufik Batisah to win the The Most Popular Male Artist...wow....tat's really awesome and cool.There must be millions of Taufik's fans screaming and giving him the fullest fanatic support.Just check out his official website man...I mean really, his fans are sooooo crazyyyyyyyy!!!! Anyway congrats to Taufik too for making Singapore proud in the music industry. I'm not really a fan of Taufiq but hey, his performances i must say have improved a lot since his Singapore Idol days.A good singer and a cool dancer he is.His solo performance in APM was brilliant and energetic.And for the 1st time ever he'd duet the song "Gadis Melayu" together with M'sia's phenomenal Mawi,winner from M'sia's Akademi Fantasia talent search. Once again to all the winners of APM '06...congrats!!Majulah muzik untuk negara!!Hehehe...
Before i end my entry...i wanna scream..."ARE THERE ANY ARI WIBOWO FANS OUT THERE?!!!!!" hehe guess what the actor "ganteng" or in other words,this handsome indon actor is coming to Singapore!!!!!Hahaha...I must say i'm attracted to this actor after watching that indonesian sinetron "DIA" shown on Suria every Mondays at 9.30pm.Yes gals!!!Mr Ari Wibowo will be coming over to Singapore and there will be a up close and personal session with this hunk at Plaza Singapura on the 2nd of April 2p.m!!!! To Mr Ari's fans don't miss this golden opportunity to meet him in person!!!
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Thursday,23 March 2006
Bonus..Bonus..Bonus!!!!
An annoucement to all civil servants working for the government...go and check your bank accounts immediately!!Bonus!!Bonus!!Bonus!!HeheheThanks Zic for sharing the "valuable" information on the government bonus thingy..And ouhh yes there'll be another household bonus for S'poreans this coming May :) Hehehe...So guys let us wait till then.
Anyway as a favour for my close cousins,yes to all my dearest cousins...i know a lot of you have been complaining that you guys have yet to see my wedding albums.I know...i know, i kinda feel bad coz after the wedding i didn't even manage to go on complete house visits to all of our relatives houses, well due to unforseen circumstances. I'm still disappointed because on my wedding day, I didn't get to be photographed with all of my closest cousins on the dais.Sigh.It's been almost 3 mths now,my apologies too as well coz i didn't manage to upload all my wedding photos online the soonest for all of you to view. Well those photos are finally here cousins....just scroll to the Photo Gallery aite..Now please no more "buggings" on the wedding album........the end.
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Tuesday,21 March 2006
Stooopidity....Arghh!!
Taken some time off to head to DBS bank to file a report for my atm card which was "swallowed" by the automated cash deposit machine last night.There goes my $330 as well.The bank staff has got a new atm card replaced for me and also informed me that the $330 which i had tried to deposit last night wasn't captured by the computer system.I'd almost screamed when staff told me that the bank autorities will continue to investigate and it'll take 2-3 days for them to respond back to me!!! The bank staff even made me to fill up a claim form for them to further investigate the matter.Stoopid system right.I mean they can't even solve the problem in 1 day!! why must this happen when i needed to use the money urgently!!!Haiyahhhhhh!!!!!!!!Stoopid!!!Stoopid!!Stoopid!! First, they'd freeze both my DBS and POSB accounts...and now this!!!Arghhhhhh!!!! Whatever...................----------------
Monday,20 March 2006
Monday Blue...Blue...Blues...
What a way to start off the monday morning,had my medical appointment with my doctor.Yeah slept very late again last nite,think it was around 3a.m.Didn't stay online for way too long, till I'd decided to just lie down on bed and sleep.But of course the attempt was futile.Couldn't get my eyes to go to sleep.Ended up sending smses and my victim was Salehin and just so that he happened to be my last "standing" chatter before he went offline to have his supper.Okie abg long,i didn't dream of "Fahmi Cicak".So he is still a mystery person from my previous dream 2 days ago.So you guys out there, if you happened to know who the heck is "Fahmi Cicak" please help me to shed some light.Is he someone famous or what?Coz I'd dreamt of this person sending me an invitation card to his wedding and ouh yeah I must mention that the wedding reception was super grand;tentage of 3 soccer fields.Too bad,just as i'd wanted to taste a spoonful of his wedding reception's "nasi jagung" ,my stoopid alarm clock gave me a "hell get outta your bed" wake up call.Gee..."kempunan" sak nasi jagung pat dalam mimpi tuh.Haiyah....Anyway my bro Faizal had just informed me that Syidah's dad was transferred from Malacca Hospital directly to CGH after he had an accident over at her family's house in Malacca.From what I'd known, her dad had fallen off frm the rooftop into their home when he'd tried to do some fixings by himself.
Anyway Syidah we'll all here pray for your dad's well-being and that he'll have a speedy recovery.Poor Syidah,really hope she's alright.
Before i end my entry here,just wanna wish that someone all the best for his Maths paper tomorrow.Gd luck Yan and all the best to you.
Very well then it's time for my dinner now... C ya around peeps....
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Sunday,19 March 2006
What A Ride...
Di!!!!Look at the time now..It's 4.55a.m early Sunday morning!!!Muahahaha...Just came back frm Mustaffa Centre after going to JB earlier at around 11.30p.m.The usual.To top up the bike petrol,what else.What have i done the whole day today?Slacked...slacked...yes....slacked!!!Even managed to cook up a storm earlier in the evening.Hahaha and the dishes simply flew to the dishwater basin.What a dread to clean up.Okie even shopped at Mustaffa Centre at 3a.m!!!!huahahaha..bought myself some packets of candles to burn my essential aromatherapy oil and yes new speakers!!!!Hahahaha...okies...let's call it a day now shall we? time to ZZzzzzZZZZzzzzzz....----------------
Friday,17 March 2006
Alhamdulillah
Dian Sastro:Disaat waktu berhenti...kosong
Dimensi membutakan mata,memekakkan telinga
Lalu diri menjadi hampa
Saat paradigma dunia tak lagi digunakan untuk menerka*
Sadarku akan hadirmu,mematahkan sendi2 yang biasanya tegak berdiri
Yassin:
Ult li albi bissaraha (I'm opening up my heart with honesty)
Hayya nab'idil karaha (Let's avoid the hated and hatred)
Syakkireena a' kulli ni'ma (Let's remain thankful with what we have)
Ba' ideena anil fattana (Let's avoid all lies and sins)
Malique:
Merenungi luar jendela,mengagumi kebesaran yang Maha Esa
Ku menilai kehidupan dari sudut berbeza
Tak memadai hanya kecapi rasa selesa
Maukan harta yang mampu beli 1 semesta
Berpesta ke pagi botol bergelimpangan
Kekasih muda bukan takat berpegang tangan
Harta dan jamuan nafsu tidak berkekalan
Bila menjelang tua bukan itu jadi bekalan
Dan jangan puisi ini disalah tafsir pula
Bukan berkhutbah cuma betuli diri jua
Ingin hidup sempurna aset nilai berjuta,
saling tukar wanita,senyum dan mati tua
Bakat dikurnia jangan disalah guna
Jangan kufur nikmat yang diberi percuma
Guna kelebihan untuk hikmah bersama
Jagalah nama hidup penuh pementasan dan drama
Ada berisi ada yang kurus,ada melencong ada yang lurus bukan semuanya tulus
ada sempuna ada kurang upaya ada yang jadi buta hanya bila sudah kaya
Sebesar rumah bermula dengan sekecil bata,boleh hilang dalam sekelip mata
Ucaplah alhamdulillah bukannya sukar, kerna semua nak kaya atau besar
Tetap Allahuakbar!!!
Joe Flizzow:
Jadikanlah ku tentera Fisabilillah yang tertera di kalimah harap memanduilah
Entah apabila persimpangan tiba,hidup penuh rintangan harus kuhadapinya
Harapku tidak terlupa diri bila gembira,dan cuma mula mencari kau disaat hiba
Ku cuma manusia penuh dengan kesilapan tapi bisa membezakan cahaya dan kegelapan
Tabah bila dihalangan duri onak dan cobaan
Teguh bila dicobakan keruh kuasa dan perempuan
Sentiasa legar diminda,dikejar dan dipinta dari zaman bermula hingga ke akhirnya
Ku mengerti siapa ku tanpamu disisi dan apa guna posesi juga posisi
Sementara ini cuma hanya puisi,nukilan tulisan dan bisikan isi hati
Mencari keterangan,menjiwai peranan menepati pesanan janji juga saranan
Alhamdulillah atas kurniaan rezeki,moga tidak terleka dalam perjalanan nanti
Ahli Fiqir:
Aku yang memandang di dalam lubuk hati,mencari-cari zat rahsia yang katanya tersembunyi
Aku yang melihat alam meliputi wujud menyertai lalu ku pindahkan alam ke dalam mata hati
Aku hakiki,aku mengerti segala yang terjadi di langit dan di bumi
Gunanya tiada fantasi, pelik dan benar,qada' dan qadar kau berilah ku kekuatan
Agar dapat ku hindarkan segala kesesatan
Usah kau biar nafsuku terliur dari pandangan majazi ini,
aku yang hodoh lagi hina amat benar merindui
Moga cahaya lailatul tak membutakan mataku,semoga segala puji tak ku meninggi diri
Moga segala janji dapat juga ku penuhi,moga dapatku hadapi tikaman dari belakang
Lidah setajam pisau, ku tidak akan risau dengan cabaran sepanjang perjalanan
Ku pasrah ku akur 7,8,6 Alhamdulillah Syukur...
Dian Sastro:
Sujudku pun takkan memuaskan inginku
'tuk hanturkan* sembah sedalam kalbu
Adapun kusembahkan syukur padamu ya Allah
Untuk nama,harta dan keluarga yang mencinta
Dan perjalanan yang sejauh ini tertempa
Alhamdulillah pilihan dan kesempatan
Yang membuat hamba mengerti lebih baik makna diri
Semua lebih berarti akan mudah dihayati
Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah....
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Friday,17 March 2006
Enough...enough...& enough.....
okay...okay...waduh aku nggak tau apaan sih.yang jelas kamu semuanya pasti dalam ketakutan dengarin lagu rasuk itu iya? okay...okay..da udah, lagu itu udah aku gantikan dengan lagu yang baru. Iya dong...usah ribut-ribut lagik okie? Hehehe....Lolz...Ok enough of the Indon slang.Lolz...Boleh pass tak jadik PR Indon? Huahahahaha...Bukannya takut...bukannya apa, segan jek ("p)
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Thursday,16 March 2006
Hmmm.....Rasuk???
A message for dearest sis Noi...Hey does this background music sounds familiar to you? Remember those times when we'd performed this dance on stage during the Pentas MCS show back then in TP?? We were in the "kipas" gang. Remember?Ok..I'll try hard not to scare you but hey sis I had a dream again late yesterday night.Ok I should say morning already.Same timing again.It was 4a.m.Not really a nightmare but this time its just mysterious.In my dream, you & me,together with our former tarian girls were happily dancing to this tune.The venue? The big auditorium at school..it is auditorium 1? Anyway all of us dancers were on stage dancing & blinded by the stage lights.We were given a full house applaude but we couldn't see whose the audience.As the music progressed, it seemed that somehow we were in a trance or something.Haha if u still do remember the dance steps involved lotsa geleks and spinning arounds.Okie here comes the kinda eerie part, everytime a spin is made, one tarian girl goes missing. Simply put, they just vanished into thin air!!! At the end of the song,the only dancers left in the auditorium were just you and me!!!We'd received a standing ovation at the end of the performance and when the lightings of the auditorium went back to normal at that very instant, there was no audience!! Arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! Noiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Thursday,16 March 2006
Sick
It's been 4 days now that I'm not feeling very well. Not in a mood actually to update my blog, but then again just to kill time and make myself useful while online, since i have trouble sleeping at night. Wanna thank those who've contributed in giving me advices. I feel so much better now. Congrats to my collegue, Farah Hani & my ex sec sch classmate Suhailah upon their much anticipated arrival of their bundle of joy recently.A baby girl & a baby boy respectively. To dearest sis Rai, hope your mum gets well soon after that minor surgery. We'll meet up pretty soon okie dearie?A message to the rest of the Squad Team...i'm missing you all already.Let's meet up soon ok? Love you all.... *Muacks*!!!
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Tuesday,14 March 2006
Apa Nak Jadi Ni?!!!!!!! Such humiliation!!!!!
Haizzzz...... My comments... makin lama aku tgk video ni makin menyampah aku......korang tengok arr sendiri....- An Afternoon With the "Hijjab"ed
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Monday,13 March 2006
"Lemony Snickets & A Series of Unfortunate Events"??
Or maybe I should rephrase that as my series of mysterious & unfortunate events. Well not that i was the one being unfortunate. I don't really know how to describe it but for the next few lines which i'll be typing out, I just wanna share with you my blog readers, some things which I had experienced yesterday. Well yeah a series of events which I had witnessed and encountered throughout the whole of yesterday...Someone whom was very close to me used to say, "Di..those nightmares which you've dreamt of..they're just bad dreams that come and go. Those dreams can't be taken seriously Di...they're all just dreams that's playing in your head while you're sleeping....."
Those were the words from him, I'll always remember. I am the kind of person who doesn't like to share stories, especially of her own nighmares. Not that I believe in getting bad omen or stuffs like that, by sharing her nightmare stories with people, but it's just that i feel its kinda inapropiate to share bad stories instead of the good ones. Ouh well you might be asking at this very moment, so why do i bother to share my nightmare stories on my blog then?
The reason WHY? I just wanna ease off my nonsensical & negative thoughts playing in my head. I think perhaps its better for me to type out my thoughts here rather than confiding in someone. Before i begin sharing on what were the nightmares which i'd encountered last night, I'll begin with yesterday's earlier unfortunate events.....
Surely, I was looking forward for yesterday's afternoon main agenda. The event was a motorbike escort for a wedding couple for the groom happened to be a friend of mine. It's been a long time since I'd involved in such events. Of course it was a joyous event celebration to see the riders both old and young together with their motorbikes of different cc's,shapes and sizes all gather as one big group escorting the wedding couple's car. It was a bright, hot and sunny sunday afternoon and I had purposely donned in my kebaya pantsuit in accordance for yesterday's official dress code. The sight of the colourful and various motorbikes instantly cheered me up. There were like vintage vespas, sports bikes and scramblers all lined up together with their gleaming owners.
Glitches began to show when my fren's scrammie began to fail on him. His bike's hydraulic clutch suddenly jammed up.How can he ride a bike if the clutch failed?He was of course agitated and finally had to pillion one of the other riders joining the escort. Then along the way to the bride's place, another person's KR encountered a problem.This time his motorbike's piston ceased. He was still lucky enough that it had happened at a small road and not on the expressway. And ouh boy,just when I thought that was the end of bad incidents happening, another biker friend of mine got into an accident on our way back after escorting the wedded couple. This time he had tried to avoid a trailer which had made an illegal U-turn. Bad luck or was it just coincidence? One thing that's for sure. The 3 unfortunate events happened right in front of my eyes at a very close distance just metres away from me. In the end, the whole convoy of motorbike riders escorted the accident victim to NUH where he was directly admitted into A&E. Thankfully,my friend managed to scrape through serious injuries as his x-ray results showed that he'd just had minor fractures and abrasions.
I'd certainly spent most of my time at NUH till it was close to 10p.m and I'd decided to go home. After my usual night showers & my prayers, I soon became kinda sleepy and tired. I'd laid myself on my bed but I'd just couldn't get my eyes to go to sleep.In the end I ended up watching a marathon of DVDs. Comel did jumped up onto my bed & brushed her head against my arms and her usual soft purring noise.Remembered talking to the cat about the day's happening and my tired self. I am a strong believer that cats do understand our feelings and that they understand every single word that we say. I'm just glad that even though that she's just a cat, she seemed to understand me and had her eyes and ears set on me whenever i'm sitting down with her to "talk".Such a brilliant and darling cat. I'd soon fell asleep with Comel in my arms.
This was when my series of nightmares started to come in and haunt my sleep, all of which happened one after another....The 4 nightmares below were the most distinguished ones in which I'd remembered the details most.....
NIGHTMARE NO. 1
Involved my 3 squad team sisters and myself. In that dream we happened to be doing some shopping in this mall in Orchard Road. The weird and funny thing was that...the shopping mall didn't look a bit like those you'll find in Orchard Rd.The mall was kinda dilapidated and the eerie thing was that there were no other shoppers except the 4 of us. Somehow that shopping mall reminded me of Joo Chiat Complex in Geylang.Lolz.Why u say?Well in that dream we took a photograph the 4 of us right in front of this overhead bridge which resembled exactly like the one at Geylang,near the bus stop and the 7-11 there. In that dream also Rai had drove us there in her Colt and that she'd parked her car at the lowest basement level.It was the only car there and well yeah 2 very old motorbikes. The carpark didn't have a lift lobby connected to the shopping mall and the only way to get to the carpark was by the staircase. We did our shopping happily until it was time to go home and we went back to the basement carpark. We went to the the lowest level only to find out that we couldn't see any sight of Rai's Colt. We back to the staircase to go down again and still no signs of mr colt. The whole carpark was empty. We went back to the staircase.The flight of stairs seemed never-ending. I was the last person heading down the stairs.It was eerie.The running down the stars seemed so real.I got myself panicked when i couldn't hear the sounds of my sisters' slippers slapping on the floors of the staircase and they voices eeriely faded away. I'd just remembered shouting their names out loud and the lights along the staircase flickered on and off. The next moment I knew, I'd tripped myself over and my whole body rolled down the staircase and the place had blacked out.Arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I jumped off and sat on my bed. I was sweating profusely. I took a look at my digital alarm clock. It was nearly 4a.m.Astaghfirullah haal aziim..It was a nightmare.I got up from bed in the dark and fetched myself a glass of water to drink. The wall clock in the living ding donged indicating it was already 4a.m....I'd continued to sleep.....
NIGHTMARE NO. 2
I dreamt of a wedding or should I say the bride in that dream looked like me. The wedding reception under the void deck was jammed packed with people. I saw a uncle in that dream being the wedding's host. I'd remembered those camera flashes blinding my eyes. I'd remembered walking past the invited guests with my head's down not uttering a single word.It supposed to be a joyous occasion but i was sad throughout. My bridesmaid took me to the bridal dais where i sat down at looked at all the people around me and those non-stop camera flashes.We were supposed to wait for the arrival of the groom.We waited and waited and 2 hours flew past. I was still sitting down on the dais when my uncle broke the news that the groom called off the wedding. I was confused. I'd broke down into tears and then I'd blacked off.......
NIGHTMARE NO. 3
Perhaps this was the most eerie nightmare i'd encountered last night. It seemed that the nightmares just continues one after another. This time round, I dreamt of myself,my mum and my old grandma. We were at home. My mum was cooking in the kitchen,my grandma in the toilet and I was in the living room mopping the floor. Suddely I'd heard a loud roar of thunder and those sounds of vigourous sea waves. I walked up to my living room windows and suddenly a bigflock of pigeons flew and gather right in front of my window with their beaks pointing to the direction of my kitchen. At the big carpark in front I saw the commotion of people all hurrying up to their cars,started their engines and began to drove off from that place.The eerie screamings and cries filled the air.They shouted something like a killer wave on its way.I'd panicked. I'd ran to my kitchen, threw the kitchen knife from her hands and pulled her to go inside my bedroom. My mum couldn't seem to understand what was happening and i'd just pulled her to my bedroom.I'd ordered her to shut closed all the windows and crawl under my bed.In between gasps of air, i'd exclaimed "we're in danger"!!....then my mind was like thinking...my granny....where's my granny?Ouh my god she was still in the toilet!!! I'd ran back to kitchen.my granny just came outta the toilet together with her walking stick.There was no time to explain. I looked out through the kitchen's window and saw a huge wave measuring like up to 6 storeys high making its way closer to my blk from a far.Ya Allah!!! I'd exclaimed.I'd quickly shut the kitchen windows and my poor grandma I'd grabbed by her shoulders, we ran to my bedroom. I remembered crying and wailing asking for God's protection...The next moment...there was a very loud sound of thunder and notorious sound of angry waves.The next moment....I'd blacked out again....
NIGHTMARE NO. 4
The nightmare continued. This time I'd "wakened up" in my dreams only to find that I was by the sea shore donning a geisha looked alike costume. Yes laugh if you want to. It was eerie. There was nobody around me. I was frantic. The beach seemed never ending as I'd walked. i was all alone. Tears rolled down my cheeks and i fell helplessly on the sandy beach.
Suddenly, I felt the warmth of a hand wiping away my tears. It was a guy in a very traditional malay warrior attire.U know those kind of hang tuah kinda outfit. I couldn't see clearly who that guy was but he did seemed like someone whom i'd thought was very familiar.A complete stranger and that the smell of his perfume...ouhh god...just remembered him wiping away my tears and he'd given me his handkerchief. When I'd looked up to thank him, he was already metres away leaving me and I'd screamed "please don't leave me!!!" It was too late. The waves pushed me into the ocean making it as though as its trying to drown me....BLACKOUT...
ASTAGHFIRULLAH. ASTAGHFIRULLAH. ASTAGHFIRULLAH.
I'd finally wakened up to the real surrounding of my bedroom once again. My pyjamas was soaked with perspiration. I'd looked next to me to see Comel gazing at me. Weird i'd thought.She wasn't in my arms already when I'd woke up earlier after my 1st nightmare for a drink. i switched on my beside lamp.Now this was the eerie part.The clock showed that it's already 4.15am.
I'd rubbed my eyes hard.No it can't be. I refused to believe that it was only 4.15am.Those nightmares.They seemed long durations.How could it be that I'd only wakened up only 15 minutes later?
I was feeling uneasy. At tat very instant I'd recited some verses of the Quran that I'd remembered. It seemed that Comel somehow knew that I was having nightmares and that she was sleeping very close to me. She acted as if she was my guardian. I'd hugged her tightly and she didn't retaliate.She seemed to understand that I was very scared.
Those unfortunate events and nightmares. I couldn't establish the relationship why did it happened. Gosh it's already 4.05 am. I'm still wide awake and luckily enough there was still my last "standing" chatter.Sigh...Comel's starting to purr at me.Perhaps she's sorta nagging that I should go to sleep NOW......ouh well...I really dunno wat else to type here.Sigh.
Till another time.....gd morning all.......
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Saturday,11 March 2006
Blogs....Journals....Life Sketches....Online Diaries...
(Quoted off Nura's Blog "Life Sketches of the Drama Queen")...
"I went in to the "Net" to read some of my closest
friends blogs. I'd read a lot. It seemed that they have a lot of things to
be shared and expressed in the blog. I'd read, from a single that is bored
to death on last week Friday. A new mother who is so excited about her birth
to a baby girl... A
newly wed who is still searching and questing for her patches of life. A mother
of two who is very exhausted on looking after her boys â?¦."
On that "newly wed who is still searching and questing for her patches
of life" ...*ponders* Time flies.It's been almost 3 months since, adjusting
to my new status.The uncertainties of how I will lead my new life with him
from then on, the day my mum and my "wali" my younger brother
Faizal,entrusted this man to be fully responsible for her daughter's & sister's
well-being since the exchange of the marriage vows last December, with the
man I now call "husband".
Papa...I've kept my promises to you, to take great care of our family especially
Mama, the well-being and reputation of our family and fulfilling my responsibilities
as the eldest sibling. If you were there on the big day, seeing me sitting
on the bridal dais in my wedding outfits, I'm sure you'll be the most happiest
person on that day. Yes Papa, the little baldy girl you used to carry & hug
dearly in your arms, she's finally grown up and now that she's a woman. A
woman whom now carries even more greater responsibilities on her shoulders.As
a human being,as a daughter,as an eldest sibling and as a wife. Not only does
she carries the reputation of her own family, but now the reputation of her
husband's family. Ya-Allah, please bless us all.....May your soul lies in
peace Papa...Insya-Allah, someday in another world, all of us will be re-united
once again Papa....Al-Fatihah...
Well as the title of my blog entry for today suggests, yes finally after almost 2 years of its disappearance, my blog's been resurrected to life. I'd been bugged by people particularly my crazy sistas, asking me what happened to my previous blog. I'd admitted that previously I'd lost interest in blogging especially in sharing with events happening to me. Blame it on my tight schedule,my sucky work at the office and other personal matters as well. Not too mention those times when I often fell ill.There was simply no time for me to spend on blogging, ouh well maybe it's just my usual excuses...
Just moments ago, I'd managed to take a peek of my other friends' personal blogs. I have to agree with Nura, that there's so much of things happened and that people blogged to express their thoughts and feelings. Tales of problematic collegues at work, enthusiastic mums, new work & new life,stories of hearts broken,desperate students...well these are just to name a few. Anyway to Nura, good luck to you and your family for this Sunday's lauching of the Bliss Card featuring your family.Insya-Allah, I'll hop down to Jurong East SSC to give my fullest support. It'll be certainly a joyous event for you and your family especially your lil Haney. Wow..already a junior model..hehehe..
To my dearest sis Rai...hahaha how's life at work now after the week's leave? I supposed you'd enough of bumming around at home. To dearest Ain..finally new blogskin!!! I lioke the purple power you're showcasing.So Zam, if you're also reading this, Ain's Blog is buried no more.Teeheehee...To Noi, perhaps one of our most loyal blog readers,when are you gonna join us blogging?Hah...ok i think that question needs to be buried ("p) . To Eda & Izah...yeah I'm not tired of mentioning this but it's really nice to finally meet with the both of you and Izah, all the best for your new job aite (",). To Hak...where have u been dude?Yeah certainly you've missed lots of our group outings. Squad team misses you....
And well I know there's certainly other people out there whom are reading my blog right at this very moment. I wanna take this opportunity to apologise as well, should I have offended anybody for maybe the stuffs which i'd posted on my blog...I'm sorry. For this is just a blog, a quiet and a humble space for the thoughts & life's sketches of a lonely & desperate soul........
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Thursday,9 March 2006
Far Away....
Finally i'd managed to download this song "Far Away" which was performed by one of my favourite bands, Nickelback whom were originated from Canada.I didn't realise that I don't have that particular song in my collection. It's really a nice song and it falls in that category which I'm not tired of repeating and listening over and over again.In fact, as i'm typing out this entry i'm still listening to it for err..like the fourth time? ("p)Simply love the lyrics and it suits the music score well.But of course the song will be even more meaningful if it relates to one's life experiences.Yeah, it's all about this thing called L.O.V.E.
Check out the lyrics to this song and hey the song you're listening to right at this very moment....Enjoy. "Far Away".....
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
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Wednesday, 8 March 2006
Hot Hot Hot
These few weeks has seen the weather being blazingly hot and stuffy.It's just not the hot weather alone.It seems that other people too are getting "hot" nowadays.I'm referring to certain individuals whom are impatient,temperamental,insensible,unrealistic and yes irrrrrrriiiitatinggggg.Like it or not,these kind of people do exist in our society,be it at the workplace,at home or even in the community.The cursing and swearing in dealing with this group of people simply give that added hatredness to their already negative attitude.And me being the unlucky one,have no other choice but to still tolerate with this kind of people.Yes, "they" drive me sick making me already into the worst state.It's just not mentally alone, but also physically.And yesterday,I thought that I had enough of it and I'd finally blew up.I can't take it anymore that people took me for granted.Ouh well,I'm still very mad as I'm typing this.I just still don't understand why I have to face all this.Ouh gosh,here it goes again,my head's spinning again & my heart's beating real fast whenever I think of this problem.Enough.Enough.Enough.
Upon reaching home I got myself changed and watched some tv programmes.I went MSN online for a while and i saw my regular chatters.Not really into the mood of chatting last night and so I had to excuse myself.Nura was also online and she was fixing her blog.Haha and guess what...I'd ended up doing the same thing.I didn't even bother to check out what time it was, until at 3.35a.m, switched on the tv to see a "live" UEFA soccer match between Barcelona FC and Chelsea.It was an exciting match,both teams were showing off the superb skills from their star players.I enjoyed watching the match and made myself happily munching to kerepek tempe and drinking iced cold rose syrup.Lolz.It was a home match for Barcelona and this was an advantage for them as they had their fullest support from their fanatic fans watching the game.Overall Barcelona dominated the whole game but there were also missed chances of beautiful shots shown by the Chelsea players.The final score was a draw of 1-1 with goals coming from Ronaldinho at the 78th minute of the game and Chelsea's goal contribution came from a penalty shootout which was taken full advantage by Frank Lampard.This was the second stage of play for the 2 teams and Barcelona had won 3-2 by aggregate.Barcelona FC managed to book a place in the Champion's League quarter finals.I can't wait for who will emerge as the overall winners of the Champions League. After the game ended,I'd finally called it a day at 6a.m after doing my pre-dawn prayers and landed myself into la-la land.....
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Tuesday, 7 March 2006
Headaches & Migraines...
As I'm typing this entry,my head's spinning...sigh...down with another obnoxious migraine yet again.Rai msged me earlier and I've already promised her to meet her later this evening at 6.30p.m, Tampines Mall... Ouh well I'm gonna just meet her and have dinner at TM.Not too sure who else's joining.I'm very much sure Ain will be there as well.Time for destressing session.A need to talk to someone.There's just so many things in my head. Not much to share here.I'm having a lazy and pathetic mood today.Thanks to a certain someone.Blarghhh......I'm out.....----------------
Saturday, 4 March 2006
Wish if there's more of these kinda sessions...
Admit it.Currently i'm facing some personal problems that has been bothering me lately.I've been strong and patient all this while.Maybe its just my fate and that maybe I'm tested for my endurance in facing life's challenges.Anyway I won't be elaborating much of my problems here and so very well let's move on to more interesting stuffs I wish to share with you, my dearest blog readers :)
Received an anoynomous call on my handphone late yesterday afternoon. I was greeted by an unfamiliar female's voice. I was kinda cautious when answering as I'd received several prank calls from an anoynomous caller weeks back. I'd heard giggles from the caller and that unfamiliar female voice introduced herself as Nura.At that very instant,both of us broke into a contagious laughter.Lolz.That was my very 1st time hearing Nura's voice,my newfound online friend.Nura then asked me whether I would be free later in the evening.She wanted to ask me out to come with her to attend this survey cum discussion session at International Building in Orchard.She told me that we will be going to this renowned marketing & advertising organisation,McCann Erickson. The discussion session will be held at McCann Erickson's office at 6.30pm and Nura had informed me too that the session will last for about 1 1/2hrs.Now here's the big catch...upon the end of the discussion session each of the participants will receive $50 cash!!!
Now that instantly caught my attention.Lolz.Hey it's easy money after all...its just you sitting down with a group of people and the discussion topic as I had been informed will be about this tv commercial for an international courier company,UPS. We're supposed to give our views and comments on the storyboard of the commercial in which the company would be shooting.
And so right after my assignment at work yesterday evening,I've met Nura as promised.Nura's sister-in-law also tagged along to go for the discussion.We were certainly amazed by the interior of McCann Erikson's office.It was sophisticatedly designed.We were led by a staff into a meeting room and the 3 of us had to sit down at the very front.I scanned my eyes and saw that all the other 7participants were females.
The discussion was led by one of the editors,Sue Ann. We'd started off the discussion with the introduction of all of the participants.Sue Ann then gave us an intro on what's the agenda for the discussion.Basically we would be viewing a slide presentation on the storyboard of the commercial.This is of course still in the initial stage of work as the final commercial has yet to be produced.All the participants will then be given a chance to voice out ideas,comments and even critics. For that discussion, Sue Ann had presented to us 2 different kinds of storyboards for the UPS tv commercial.
For the next 1 1/2 hrs,all of us the partipants did really enjoy the discussion session.Lotsa comments were made particularly on the dominating celebrity in the tv ad Jean Reno,yeah that French guy who played in The Pink Panther recently.I'd enjoyed myself thoroughly hearing interesting and amusing comments from the other participants.All of us were engrossed with the discussion till Sue Ann finally announced that she'll wrapped up the whole discussion with the completion of a survey form and the presentation of cash rewards to all of the 10 participants.
And so at the end of the discussion session, all the participants left with a sense of satisfaction and of course all smiles as for being rewarded with $50!!!!Lolz...
Nura babe,if you happen to read this entry,thanks for psychoing me to come with you yesterday evening.Haha not a fruitless effort after all. If you know more of this kind of discussion session thingy don't forget me aite!!Haha and yeah we shall meet up again real soon for lunch!!!
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Thursday, 2 March 2006
Time Is Ticking
1.04a.m and the day has just entered into a Friday.My eyes are still wide awaked.Sleepless as usual. The hot milo and the medications didn't work on me. Sigh.Ouh well,one by one the contacts on my MSN logged off.Chatted quite long with my "abg long" Salehin.Updated him on the mission he'd assigned me with.Haha no, not like that of The Pink Panther. Much simpler and yeah its not stupid at all. Just helping him out to check out on somebody over at Tampines. Spying for more details back at the office there. Managed to meet up with a collegue of mine, its been quite sometime since I'd last met Ida.Just got to know that she had underwent a surgery on her hips.Poor thing and she complained to me that she's now facing some problems with regards to her claiming from her health policy. Didn't chat for long in MSN with In , he had to excuse himself as he would be working later at 5.30am.
Ouh yeah earlier on chatted with Nura as well.haha.I was mesmerized by her tales from Damai.Lolz.She knew most of my seniors very well, even though she was not from my school.She kept me entertained with her funny stories and even shared with me some of her friends pictures online.Haha "kepunten" betul, I did help her in giving some html tips for her blog.Lolz.Funny indeed.In the end she'd finally managed to figure out how to add an extra link to her blog.
My last "standing" chatter was gd old' Zic, my funky neighbour who lives next blk. It's been quite sometime since I'd chatted with him.Shared with me his disappointment for his attachment to the CNB unit was cancelled and stories of him getting prank calls, almost quite similar like mine.Ahaks, and I've found out tat the clown pictures featured in NightlifeSG was actually him with his group of crazy friends helping out for an event at Zouk. Funny chap.Hmm he informed me that he'd most probably wouldn't able to catch this year's MotoGp.I'm not sure myself if I could make it as well. But it's rumoured that it's gonna be the last season for Rossi and that he would be joining F1 in 2007.Ouh dear my favourite racer, I'm sure gonna miss all of his track actions if the rumours proved to be true.Haizz...and Zic please keep me updated should you wanna change your bike again.Maybe you can just donate your old bike to me then?Hehehe ("p)
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Wednesday, 1 March 2006
Stress??
I don't know what's wrong with me, but I did noticed that I had rather been feeling so much down lately. Stress? Feeling fed-up? Less sleep? Hmm ouh well maybe i supposed. Or maybe it's just the usual sickly me that made me feel this way.Couldn't sleep again last night. Time check, 11pm.Heard the beeps of sms from my mobile phone. It was Kamal,the belated birthday boy asking if I'm already safely back home. His sms instantly brought a smile on my face. Replied back to his sms and we'd exchanged quite a few bunch of smses.I thought he was still out doing his part-time job, but he'd told me that he'd just came back from a soccer match & that he was already slacking & playing his guitar.He had messaged me at the right time as I was feeling low & I was entertained by his usual funny antics.Dude if you're reading this entry,you still owe me a pizza aite ("p).
I went online for a short while in hope to clear as much mails as possible from my 3 e-mail accounts.Sheesh,it was only a week that I didn't check my accounts and I had lotsa junk mails to clear.
Anyway, Nura startled me when she gave me a "nudge". I didn't take notice of my MSN contacts who were online then. Chatted with her for a while, asking her how's her family particularly her children & herself doing and we even managed to have the short time to gossip.ahaks,ouh well wat else do we all girls talk about when we gather ourselves together rite? (",).
Its only been about a week since I've known Nura,ouh well thanks to tat thing named "Friendster". We've yet to meet each other, but yet strangely Nura & I clicked kinda well together.Perhaps maybe because that we share the same thoughts and interests together.And yeah she's of the same age of me too.I'd still remember the 1st time when we chatted online about one week ago,it was so smooth,its as though like we've known each other for a very long time and we'd chatted just about anything non-stop.pretty cool huh.Kinda envy her; being a happy mother with 2 kids and a lovable hubby. Happy for her too. Maybe Nura could become my role model. Of course Nura,yes,we will meet for lunch sometime yah (",).
Just replied another e-mail.this time it's him.my reply came kinda late, only saw it in my inbox today.I was kinda surprised actually to receive that e-mail.Yeah,just like he had mentioned that its been already quite awhile since we've chatted in MSN,yet alone smses or phone conversations.Anyway it was nice to finally hear from him.I pray that he'll do well with exams and school.Insya-Allah.
So much for my updates,time for my meal and medications now.....till another time.....
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Wednesday, 1 March 2006
Precious
Hmm nothing much to update about myself at the moment. Just thought of putting up this photo link courtesy of Rai.As it has always been a Squad team tradition, we will always be equipped with cameras everytime we go out on an outing. My photo collection of myself together with them alone...well let's just say its already taken up the space of 2 photocopier paper boxes. Yeah tat's so very typical of me. And it just doesn't stop there. Even those lil' stuffs given to me like keychains, plush toys, cards, pens (even cinema movie tix!!)bla...bla...bla...bla...yeah those lil lil stuffs tat held so much memories to me, they're well-kept in photocopier paper boxes which are uniquely hand painted by myself during my free time. A girlfriend of mine was even amused when she actually fiddled with some of the stuffs in my collection. She couldn't believe that I took so much trouble to "archive" my collection. Well let's just imagine tat cute plush toy with a sticker, sticking out from its ears.Lolz.It is merely simple labelling like 1) date/time it was given 2) name of the giving person & 3) on wat occasion it was given,if any. These things are so precious & meaningful to me, I even took the trouble to ziplocked them in clear plastic bags, yeah u know like those dramas u see in tv where objects/evidences of crime scenes are kept in clear bags.Ridiculous?Well tat's how exactly I treasure those items, just like my old gd fren Mr Diary........ouhh well enuf of me blabbering, check out the surprise belated birthday celebration pics at my photo gallery....----------------
Wednesday, 22 February 2006
Memories of What It Used to Be
I wonder if he remembers me
or if I'm just a memory
I wonder if he thinks of us
or if he finds it useless
I wonder how things would be
if he had never left me
I wonder how he is
And if I'm still a love of his
I think about him everyday
And wonder if he's okay
I think about how happy we were
And the memories make the tears stir
I think about the plans we made
While we were lying in the shade
I think about all we said
And the lives we lead
To not know
Where to go
To not know where to find
A place where he may hide
To not be able to see his face
Puts my heart so out of place
To not know when he's near
Is my greatest fear
There's so much in my head
That I wish I'd said
There's so many missed kisses
For my unanswered wishes
There's only so many ways
For me to make it through the days
There's so little light
In my heart tonight
What would I say
If given a day
What would happen
If I could have him
What joy would it bring
To hear him sing
What would I feel
If he was here for real
I miss him each day
That he is away
I miss him looking out for me
The way it used to be
I miss his love
That protected me like a glove
I miss him
So much it's made my heart dim
I wonder if he still cares
That's a question that tears
I wonder what he's like
If he'd tell me to take a hike
I wonder if he fears
That I don't hold him dear
But most of all
I wonder if he still loves me
Or if I'm just a memory
of what it used to be.......
or if I'm just a memory
I wonder if he thinks of us
or if he finds it useless
I wonder how things would be
if he had never left me
I wonder how he is
And if I'm still a love of his
I think about him everyday
And wonder if he's okay
I think about how happy we were
And the memories make the tears stir
I think about the plans we made
While we were lying in the shade
I think about all we said
And the lives we lead
To not know
Where to go
To not know where to find
A place where he may hide
To not be able to see his face
Puts my heart so out of place
To not know when he's near
Is my greatest fear
There's so much in my head
That I wish I'd said
There's so many missed kisses
For my unanswered wishes
There's only so many ways
For me to make it through the days
There's so little light
In my heart tonight
What would I say
If given a day
What would happen
If I could have him
What joy would it bring
To hear him sing
What would I feel
If he was here for real
I miss him each day
That he is away
I miss him looking out for me
The way it used to be
I miss his love
That protected me like a glove
I miss him
So much it's made my heart dim
I wonder if he still cares
That's a question that tears
I wonder what he's like
If he'd tell me to take a hike
I wonder if he fears
That I don't hold him dear
But most of all
I wonder if he still loves me
Or if I'm just a memory
of what it used to be.......
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Monday, 20 February 2006
Innocent Surprise
Last Saturday Feb 20th,was a day to be remembered. Finally a gathering with my dearest Squad Team.Missed them so much to the core & hey Rai I'd missed becoming a backside passenger of your Mr Colt.Sorry guys..sorry gals pardon me for my "M.I.A"ing.Kinda felt a bit left out when all of you went to Sentosa Island during tat CNY hols.Gee..I really couldn't join for that outing...well due to some commitments I had to personally overcome.Anyways glad that u guys had lotsa fun that whole weekend.Thanks to Ain & Rai for sharing the photos which both of you had taken and yes ahaks those eerie tales from beyond.So will we still go to Palawan Beach? ("p)Anyway back to the outing last Saturday,met the Squad Team for The Pink Panther Movie which was screened at the Orchard Cineleisure cinema at 3.30pm.I must admit that I wasn't really interested to watch this movie at first...ouh well it's like just another remake to a classic.But at the end of the show,I left the cinema with tonnes of giggles & laughters shared with my other sistas re-capping those intimidating & hilarious scenes.And yes...Noi..you're definitely right about the "kelakar bodoh" thingy of tat movie.Lolz.
After the movies we met the 2 available hunkies,Imp & Zam at Arab Street.It was Ain's idea for us to lepak at this cafe (ermm... I have forgotten about the name) which was really far better with service than Al-Majlis.Dinner for us were some light Egyptian snacks.As usual hanging out at Arab Street wouldn't be complete without smoking "sheesha" & so we did.I took only 4 puffs and tat was the end of it...as soon as I'd realised tat I felt kinda light-headed. And yes little did I know tat the Squad Team had a lil bit of surprise in store for me....
Yes......we celebrated my belated 23rd b'day as well tat evening.You guys were so sweet as the chocolate cake which was presented to me.It was a yummylicious treat.And hey I didn't really expect u guys to come up with a b'day gift as well for me...tat chic looking handbag...gee I was touched by all of your sincerity.Thank you....thank you so much my dearest Squad team.You have all made my day tat week,that's for sure.And yes I would definitely wished i could scream as loud as Zam's infamous "I Love You All"!!!!
Well so much for the "innocent surprise"....our next stop,we'd headed to East Coast Bowling Alley for a game.It was actually Zam's "craving" for a game but it turned out to be the skool boi's nite...Imp whom had emerged as "The Bowler of the Day"...and crapped I've managed to get only a STRIKE...arghhh...wat a luck.
We wrapped up the day by treating ourselves at Mas Ayu Restaurant at Siglap or more exactly Upper East Coast Rd,as it is being located at.The creamy teh tarik was superb.And yeah hey I shouldn't have allowed myself to indulged with any sweet sinful temptations especially in the late hours of the night...ahhh wat the heck....
*yawned* that's rite, it was countless on how many times I had yawned when Rai drove us back home....sob sob...and the day seemed so short....so can't wait for another outing....*hint hint*........for now we will be missed.....
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Friday, 17 February 2006
A Deadly Love
You walked into my life,not knowing what to expect.
The anger and darkness that filled me frightened you,
but something kept you from leaving me.
Not knowing why you're still here,
your mind is a roller-coaster of thoughts,
and feelings you never expected,
But strangely you never wanted them to end.
I could see your feelings grow for me;
the lust in your eyes cannot be mistaken,
with each day it grows more and more,
like the moon in the night's sky.
You're still confused on why you stay,
Knowing that your life could end at any moment.
The danger you're in, from just being with me,
excites you in a way you never knew existed.
What you don't realize is that I know what you are feeling;
you generally love me for the person I am.
What you don't know is that I'm not a person at all,
but a creature of the night, a creature that could kill you at any moment.
And yet I let you stay, knowing what I could do,
I fear that I might have feelings for you.
They grow with each passing moment of time we spend together,
but I could never let it go far, for you would never come back.
So as watch you, and see your love grow for me,
I know that soon you will be gone forever.
And somehow you know this too,
but you're not afraid you're numbed by your lust for me.
As I watch you die, knowing I could have stopped it,
I tell myself that you meant nothing, but we both know that's not true,
I truly loved you and look at what I did to you........
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ABOUT THE GIRL
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mardiana.1982.capricorn
executive."emo" girl.desperate wife.supermommy.dreamer.cat lover.blue.brown
black.purple.red.
starbuck's hazelnut latte.
milk.calm. girl smiley.
dancing queen.camera freak.
motorbikes.soccer.cooking.
bookworm.music. movies.fashion
MORE INTRO
likes to ponder + t-shirt & jeans girl+ loves to dressed up in Adidas,Levi's & Mango apparel+ chocoholic + i love ice-cream+ cheese obsession + music heals my soul + love for poetry + works hard to achieve what i want + loves travelling & sight-seeing + loves thrills + arachnophobia + i hate roaches!!!yikes!!+ used to have gephyrophobia + nothing beats chilling out with my bestest buddies affectionately a.k.a The Squad TeamTHE PEEPS
- the ElleRaiDriver
- White VIOS Chic Ain
- The 999 Boy,Hak
- Ijal my Jiwang Bro
- Zura my "Goon" Sister
- Syidah Syidot
- Hana Hanot
- The Cool N'hood Policeboy
Ilyas
- Hot Drama Mama Nura
- The Cool Funky Babe Eda
- The
Bollywood Chic Izah
- Karene the bubbly gal
- Shahril the Policeboy
- My Wacky Cuzzin Kak Jun
- Naddy a.k.a Dik Yon
- Eddy Junaidy "Merah"
- Idasie the Sweetiepie
- Mia my "air kotak" buddy
- Izad&Hana
- Baby Aniq Izhan
- Diah Masturah @ Etrangle
- Afdlin a.k.a Cip Kodokz
- Alvin's Sweetie,Huixin
- Imran Ajmain
- Herman Slash
- Mr CyRoFiLA Yan
- Funnyman Mr Brown
- Happeepill!
- AQ
- Ajab BooBoo & Co
- Suhaimi Yusof
- Nura J
- Alfarahizah
- Ms Drubilee
- Ms Drubilee's Edroos
- Syed Hamzah
Photo Gallery
- Noi's Pinkified B'day- the surprise birthday treat (Part 1)
- the surprise birthday treat (Part 2)
- My Wedding Album I
- My Wedding Album II
- Crazy J.B Pigging Out Trip
THE TAGGIE
LINKS
- ChannelNewsAsia- SINGOV
- ESPN Soccer
- GV
- Cathay
- SingaporeBikes
- America's Next Top Model
- Nike's Joga Bonito
- Adidas
- Ola Lola
- The Body Shop
- Play!
- ArielJoy
- AnneGeddes
- HotSlings
- Avent
- FarlinBaby
- BabySayang
- Babytown
- Dreamzentity
- Ikea
Reach me at
msytique4@hotmail.com